Another way to My Neverland

bucket to fantasies of my mind

My Snow White Queen
keyzy_kyumsy
Title      : My Snow White Queen
Author  : keyzy_kyumsy
Pairing  : Onkey
Rating   : PG
Genre   : Fantasy, slight!angst
Summary : "Magic mirror on the wall, who is the faires one of all?."

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On a hill far away, a glass tower perched atop a magnificent castle. The whole room’s sparkling, lights reflected. The tube room’s magnificent and glamorous. Each layer is used to reflect a person's shadow. A cold beauty, who with the ​​beauty alone, able to subdue the king. With the majestic body, able  to make all bowed as he passed. The graciousness in his cunning mind, able to hold the kingdom in hand. He is the owner of those soot black hair, owner of those pouty red blood lips, white marble skin, fox-like eyes dangerously framed with black kohl. A perfect figure, a person who so called the ‘queen’ of the kingdom. He is the only beauty, the almighty in his kingdom. He is that Key.
But there’s another inhabitant in the glass tower. The magic mirror. He is different from others glass in the room. He never reflected the queen reflection. Instead, he appears before a magic mask, telling the truth, answer what was asked. He likes it, he likes to answer the queen’s question. The same repeated question. Because he will always gladly answer that greedy question. Because he likes the prideful smirk on the queen’s flawless face, every time he gives the truth answer. He likes it, when the magic set him to tell the truth, and the truth espoused his answer to pour all the compliment to the queen as his answer. Like other creatures, he began to feel, he could differentiate his own feeling and the magic in him, he liking the queen—too much.
Until the day come—when the reality banged his mask. When he realize that he is just an inanimate object. When he could not utter praise for the queen. He's just a magic object that is intended to express the truth, he can not tell a lie or that's what he feels. The reality is not letting the queen remains in her majesty. God sets the other to occupy a place as his masterpiece. The magic mirror couldn’t change the answer.
“ Slave in the magic mirror, come from the farthest space, through wind and darkness I summon thee. Speak! Let me see thy face.”
“ What wouldst thou know, my Queen?”
“ Magic mirror on the wall, who is the fairest one of all?”
“ Famed is thy beauty, Majesty. But hold, a lovely maid I see. Rags cannot hide her gentle grace. Alas, she is more fair than thee.”
“ Alas for her! Reveal her name.”
“ Lips red as the rose. Hair black as ebony. Skin white as snow.”
“ Snow White!”
Days after those different answer was lonely. The magic mirror was lonely. The Queen no longer summoned him. Key too busy destroying his opponent. He was drown in his ambition to restore the answer that he usually—should get.
The queen question might sounds selfishly arrogant, but as a magic object, the magic mirror could saw the insecure between those questions. And a great relief on those naughty smirk after the question’s answered. As a magic object, Onew—the magic mirror's name—could see what a mundane eyes can’t. Such as love, hate, kindness, bitterness, fear, loneliness and despair-
The mirror can only see the souls, the color of them. And the soul of the queen is beautiful, not Snow White beautiful diamond soul —clearly shining, the Queen’s black and blue, its dark color somehow, Onew see it as a covered fragility, a dot of loneliness covered beautifully by chicane, envy, hate, despair and rage. Like a black dim obsidian. It’s beautiful, the soul—the Queen is beautiful.
“Magic Mirror, on the wall, who, *now*, is the fairest one of all?”
“ Over the seven jewelled hills, beyond the seventh fall, in the cottage of the Seven Dwarfs, dwells Snow White, fairest of them all.”
“ Snow White lies dead in the forest. The huntsman has brought me proof. Behold, her heart.”
“ Snow white still lives, fairest in the land. 'Tis the heart of a pig you hold in your hand.”
“The heart of a pig! Then I've been tricked!”
It’s not that beautiful soul the mirror always sees anymore. The queen was furious. His heart flamed red, blinding. Onew the mirror could just watching the scenes on the other side of the magic mirror. He watched the Key devoted all his sweat to the poison crock. He heard Key’s vague laughter as he proudly raised a bottle of poison in his fair hand. He felt the envy and bitterness as Key passed him after changed his appearance magically with evil ambition beneath that black hoody. The queen’s soul blackened, a complete black.
“She’s done! It’s me! I am the one! He will still chooses me! everyone will still under me!.”
An insecure mumble escorted the Queen when he entered the tower. He just gave a glance to the magic mirror without asking anything.
Snow-white was dead once, but then what called miracle happened.
Onew is a magic creature, he can see the trusth, he can see the future, and the queen aware of that. There’s no more question from the blody red lips, when the news came. That snow-white was still alive, and come with the love of her live. Their wedding was held with great show and splendor. But the queen was also bidden to the feast. When he had arrayed himself in beautiful clothes, eyes framed dangerously with the black khol, he went before the magic mirror,
“magic mirror on the wall, who is the fairest one of all?.”
“o, queen, of all here the fairest art thou, but the young queen is fairer by far as I trow.”
Then the queen uttered a curse, and was so wretched, so utterly wretched that she knew not what to do. Onew could see a hesitation on the queen’ confused mind. At first he would not go to the wedding at all, but he had no peace, and had to go to see the young queen. Onew want to stop the queen, because the magic in him can see the future—the ugly future.

Onew could only watch the queen walked to fetch his end from the glass tower across the ballroom. When Key went in and recognized snow-white, and he stood still with rage and fear, and could not stir. But iron slippers had already been put upon the fire, and they were brought in with tongs, and set before him. Onew just watched it, his ‘something’ is aching with fear.

Onew watched it, his eyes achingly hurt when Key was forced to put on the red-hot shoes. Onew saw the odd, Key’s eyes went empty as he put the hell shoes on, letting his marbellous feets burned red, and he began dancing like a graceful madness as if he dancing for his own requiem. The color of his soul was fading in each turn of his dance. He stopped abruptly in the middle of the hall and tilted his head to stare through the window, to the glass tower, to the magic mirror. The fear of losing consumed Onew when those pair of eyes stared at him, the kind of the questioning eyes, asking for the same question. It’s second when the world paused, before Key dropped down dying.

Heartlessly cruel,
               Vacuous,
                               Arrogant,
               Beautiful,
My Queen.

Onew He should be a soulless. He couldn’t be fall in love. He should be just a thing.
The mirror cracked, let the magic leaked, let Onew come out in a black fog as black as the night sky. Sneaked out from the cracks, blended with the night wind, he tried to reach the laying queen, but Onew is just a magic spell which live in a magic world, real air posioning him. He bearly reached the dying queen. His queen was laying there on the cold marble floor, dying.
Onew has witnessed many magic happened behind the mirror, he tried to do the same, hoping for another magic to happen. The ending wasn’t change. How deep Onew kissed the queen’s cold lips, the body stay unmoved. Key’s hair begin to grow white, as the magic spells in his body withdrawn, mixed with the air, leaving him—vanished. So long with Onew, he is a magic spell too, an invincible with a form.
He hovered, enveloped the queen’s body, whispered something in the air.
There’s a relieved smirk on Queen’s lips, before Onew completely vanished with the air, leaving the unbeating heart in the dead body with the silver hair. Key’s body was still beautiful, it didn’t rotten, only the hair was changed, like Onew have had give him the last magic.
“you are the fairest, Key—My Queen.”




I can’t save your life,
Though nothing I bleed for is more tormenting.
I’m losing my mind and you just stand there and stare as my world divides.








A's something:

so, yeah, I dunno, but I thing the queen is beautiful somehow.

she ihas ambition and all....well--okay--errm.

I copied the original conv from the original classic one.

and I quote a pharse from Evanescence's My Snow White Queen.

hope you enjoy your time~

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Augenblick
keyzy_kyumsy
Tittle      : Augenblick
Author  : keyzy_kyumsy
Pairing  : OnKey
Genre   : fluff(?)
Ratting  : PG
Summary             : KiBum doesn’t know. He doesn’t know how JinKi’s brain went blank whenever those pink cherry lips touches JinKi’s. KiBum doesn’t know how JinKi’s time pauses everytime KiBum does this new strange habit.

comedes


“he-he-he, good afternoon hyung~” KiBum’s cheerful tone, second after his pouty lips touched JinKi’s. He flies a sweet smile before busying himself with toiletries. Come in and out his room. Leaving JinKi who lets out  a sigh after few seconds he paused his action. He stare blankly at a blue covered script in his hands.
Since when?. Two month ago?. JinKi still remember even it’s just vaguely strung in his half drunk memory from that time. When everyone’s  just too ignorance. When he just too caring. When he was the only one who not used (yet) to drunken KiBum. When those annoyingly interesting voice blabbering everything, sulking, whining for hug. When his 30% sober mind didn’t care with clingy KiBum, didn’t care when KiBum tailing him on to JinKi’s bed, didn’t care when KiBum snuggle in his arms, purred like a kitten. Didn’t care when KiBum showered him with kisses from those pouty pink lips. Ah, no. not kisses it’s pecks all over JinKi’s face. Now, He really regret it. Blamed his 30% sober mind for being too careless. Because it seems KiBum has developed a new habit after that time.
Two months. Yes, almost two months since then.
“Memorize your script hyung?” KiBum bring himself on the couch right besides JinKi. JinKi could smell fresh musk lemon as KiBum sat clumsily besides him. He could see KiBum’s hair is still wet, dripping few drop water on to pink little towel that hung on his neck.
“mmm!” JinKi is too busy with his flash back thought to give KiBum longer answer.
KiBum mumbled “emmmm~” as an acceptance for JinKi’s answer. Kibum raised his foot. Cross-legged on the sofa put a curly brown fur ball-like commedes on his lap and began to playing with that brown little thing.
To be honest, they’re (Kibum and commedes) bothering JinKi more or less. Because JinKi just got his mind back from the past thought and tries to concentrate to his script. But, baby talking KiBum while he ‘chatting’ with commedes. Playing and Kissing action that performed by two of them just makes JinKi wants to throw the script which he must memorize by tomorrow and just watching sweet thing that happening besides him.
“KiBum—you know, I must memorize this for tomorrow shoot so—“ he scratches his head “—can you and commedes-“
“aigoo~ okay, okay. We’ll play somewherelse~” KiBum stand up carrying commedes in his left arm.
Jinki just scratched his head that does not itch. Making his maroon brown hair getting more messy.
“aioooooo~ don’t push yourself too hard~~” as always, Jinki did not really realize what had just happened to him. KiBum’s bonny fingers just ruffled his messy hairs before plant a quick peck on JinKi’s free lips.
KiBum doesn’t know. He doesn’t know how JinKi’s brain went blank whenever those pink cherry lips touches JinKi’s. KiBum doesn’t know how JinKi’s time pauses everytime KiBum does this new strange habit.
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 “why everyone is leaving? This is just one day off! Why can’t we just spend it together?!” KiBum continue sulking in the middle of living room. “it’s just fucking 26 hours off! Why is everyone enforce to go home?” KiBum yelling at the air. While JinKi still busy dressing up.
“why don’t you hang out with your friends like always?” MInHo’s last words before he walk out the door after Taemin who already ignored KiBum. Jjong presence already gone since yesterday night, right after manager said that they have a day or 30 hours to be exact –off.
“but—friends. they are—busy-“ KiBum weakly mumbled.
“hyung~ can’t you satay?” here KiBum goes again. When everyone already leaved and JinKi is the only one left (because his clumsy preparation need extra time than others). And JinKi is the one who not used (yet) to a whiny KiBum.
“but, KiBum. We need to at least pay a visit to our parents!” JinKi said calmly while stuffed his bag with everything he think necessary.
“oh~ come on hyung! Your parents are nearby~ your home is still in seoul!” KiBum grabbed JinKis sleeves before place his arm around JinKi’s shoulders. “look! We can  go grab a meal or shopping or—“ KiBum didn’t finish his words and let out a sigh instead after he saw JinKi’s expression. It’s not that KiBum doesn’t know that this is almost 9 months without rest and they know this precious 30 hours off might the only time they can enjoy anything freely (literally free) before they get more busy with upcoming album project. And yeah, KiBum knows too well that all SHINee members are just their parents babies.
“okay~~” JinKi really not used to this (not so new) habit of KiBum.”—bring many gifts when you back hyung!”  KiBum waves lazily.
JinKi just walked out the door blankly. Although that’s the 3rd time for this past 6 hours since he woke up. Those pecks is just like flashes. randomly touches JinKi’s lips.


Jinki realized that maybe he was the first to return to their dorm after spending a few hours to cuddle with his ​​parents. Precious time, although only briefly as it turned out his parents already have a schedule to visit their colleagues outside the city.
Awkwardly dorm lights are too bright when Jinki entered. All in all the room lights on. Make a living room that has 3 different types of lights, looks like a tank with all the lights on. Jinki just think 'well. This is quite normal if the one who left the dorm was an Achluophobia carriers like Kibum’.
Jinki walked into the rooms and turning off some lights in order to make the situation seem more normal. Before he stopped for a bit of shock at the beginning and then enjoy what he sees later.
Scene that presented to his eyes. The dark night sky in contrast with the pale figure wrapped with a loose white shirt and light blue short somehow managed to position himself in the corner of the porch. Make him look shrunk to a tiny form. Glittered black earphones plugged in his ears. A curly brown fur ball playing with his ​​pale hands and another fur-ball squatted around his feet. Somehow those scenery looks beautiful, framed with the balcony large glass windows frame of their apartment. If only Jinki do not see how those hollow eyes stare blankly at the surface of their balcony. In accordance with the expressionless face of the pale figure.
“—so, you didn’t go anywhere?” JinKi manage himself to stand far across  KiBum. Leaned on the door slide.
KiBum jolted abit for a sudden appearance before he unplug one of his earphone and tickles commedes randomly before he answered in a murmur “—Daegu is too far for just 26 hours-“
A chill silence for JinKi because he just realize the fact that yeah, KiBum’s home town is just far enough to spend 14 hours drives to round trip. And it’s not that KiBum could ride a public bullet train with his position as a SHINee. Now JinKi just wanna be an older one and position him self on another corner to facing KiBum, leaning his back to the balcony railing. Responded to black fur-ball Garcons who plays with his hand.
“you said yourself thec can help you with anything. Call? Video call?” JinKi overred. Trying to show a caring towards KiBum.
“they’re busy.” The answer that makes JinKi become more awkward and don’t know what to do.
“ummm—well you know, I –“ JinKi is not the best one who can melts the awkward moments. He just continuous to make the atmosphere as awkward as it is. “ekhm, I brought gifts! My mom’s japchae.” He tried his best to break out the situation he can’t endure.
“eh?” KiBum titled his head from his squatted knees. Looking at JinKi.
“you said this morning to get you gift. Didn’t you?”
“ah!” KiBum’s poty lips performed an ‘o’ remembered. “whaa~ where?!”
JinKi reliefed that he can see KiBum smiles and stands up with enthusiast.
“I put them on the dinning table!” JinKi followed KiBum to stand up.
“yaaayyy~~ where~where~” KiBum singing cheerfully.
Somehow, JinKi is just amazed how KiBum’s mood can be switched so quickly. But he also stands up with enthusiast. JinKi can’t be assured or confident that Kibum really changed his mood, or just pretending to change the mood. Jinki familiar with his thinking about the world that has two sides. Suspicion. Or the though that KiBum is the one who can’t stand with uncomfortable atmosphere. That therefore KiBum is always an expert to restore the atmosphere to be warm again.
“you know KiBum?!” JinKi just follows Garcons who tailed his master enter the living room. “you can come to my parent’s home with me next time if there’s time like this again. Errrr –“ JinKi just said it freely. As free as his mind which already pictured KiBum chatting with his mom and playing few games with JinKi and his parents in their living room.
For few seconds it’s just silent with KiBum stare innocently at JinKi. JinKi almost want to correct his sentence in case if there’s any misunderstanding might caught by KiBum from his words. “awwwwww~ sweet! Yup, that’s sound fine~ next time I’ll come with you.” Such a bright tone followed by a sweet 4th  pecks for JinKi today.
“hey, don’t kiss me casually as you please!” because JinKi is just begin to frustrated with all this weird butterflies in his mind whenever he gets those pecks. “you think what am I?” JinKi sounds sulking.
“a dog! Kissing you is like kissing a dog!” KiBum then kissed commedes in his arms. “ because you’re like Commedes and Garcons! Kissable~”
KiBum doesn’t know. He doesn’t know that his recent statement’s makes JinKi annoyingly glaring at Commedes and ridiculously assume that Commedes and Garcon are suck rivals.
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JinKi’s mind is just too consumed by the alcohol. He just can sense few part of his thought. Hi is on the point of drunk state that His brain is just hanging on the honesty’s string in his mind. “hey! Are you always like this?”
“what?”
“the kiss!” JinKi state with fixed eyes “ do you always do that?--to Taemin too? Jjong and Minho too? To all your friends too?—“
“what?! The hell—“ KiBum just blinks repeatedly in puzzled manner  “ why should I do that? It’s sounds ridiculous! ”
“but, you do that to me! you kiss me randomly.” JinKi says in serious manner. Hi drags his legs stomping unsteady toward KiBum.
“I told you before~ because you feel like a dog!” KiBum looks like he is about to runaway from the serious drunken JinKi. Tries his best to keep eye contact whit those red eyes.
“look!-“ JinKi leans his head closer “I’m not a dog KiBum!” he whispered.
KiBum winces from the alcohol smells from the other’s breath
Before he had time to comment on Jinki’s alcohol smelled sting breath. Kibum didn’t  know how or when he felt the smell of alcohol was spreading into his mouth instantly when Jinki’s lips stick and playing with his. He was too shocked to resist or respond to Jinki’s tongue that now sensually ventured inside his mouth. His eyes widened. His view only caught Jinki’s closed eyes who enjoying sensual action that his lips doing.
Jinki did not touch him. He just stood in the same place. Releasing his lip from KiBum’s. Licked his lips before drawing a smirk. “see? I’m not a dog!”
Kibum was silent. Stoned . Just blinked trying to catch his logic. He was too busy to care about passed out JinKi infront of him.
Kibum does not know. He does not know what he was doing and what he had just received. Forcibly crammed like. Logical circuits hit Kibum’s head.
He's just lonely. That's why he was fireced to teach Commedes to speak. He just wants Commedes answer all his questions. He just wanted a company. He just want a company when everyone is just too busy with themselves and Commedes always there for him. Commedes let him pour out all his heart's content. He let him hug him. Cuddle together. That's why he gave affection pecks for Commedes. Because Commedes willing to accompany him.
And-- he found someone else. Not Commedes. Who let him hug him. Who let him Cuddle together. Who listened to his heart. And someone is answering Kibum’s questions this time. Yes, that night. He ‘found’ Jinki.
That's why he gave thousands pecks to Jinki. It was the same affectionate pecks which he gave to show his gratitude to Commedes for always being there for him.
Kibum heart suddenly pounding. Fingering his lips which still wet and become smells like alcohol. This may sound very silly. But Kibum really just realized that Jinki and Comedes are different.
Jinki can respond to the outpouring of his heart. Something that can not be done by Commedes. Commedes could not give a sensual kiss that makes his body hot and makes his heart pounding abnormally.
With nervousness. Kibum stepped over Jinki who being drunk giggling on the floor. And rush into his room, slamming the door lock himself.
 Kibum does not know. He doesn’t know if it's possible, just possible that he just accidentally fall in love. He also does not know that Jinki also had to deal with his awareness that is not fully conscious that he unaware that he himself is in love.






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Actually I don't really know what is this -__- (in the moment, I should write my final papers but,..... yeah i had my limits so here I am)
and, lately I think Key just so often posted Commedes or his puppies~ and my tired mind just think that hi might lonely or something that he can get sooooo close with those puppy~~ (have I said that it's my tired mind which thinking that way?) so, ekhem yeah~~
i'm sorry for all technically error in this one~~

all are wellcome *bows*

Red Thread
keyzy_kyumsy
Tittle       : Red Thread
Author    :keyzy_kyumsy
Pairing    : OnKey
Genre     : Fantasy/Romance
Rating     :PG
Summary : He Isn't Onew Right? Onew has been destroyed.


Like a dream come true when I first looked at him closely. I heard his voice clearly. Of course, he physicaly resembles the one I love. Who has been destroyed. Onew.
Right now I'm doing my job as a substitute angel. Now I paint a rainbow replaces Jessica as a color angel. When I painted the first color in the small south asia southeastern sky, as if I saw his face in there. I even like heard his voice when the wind helped spread the colors. He is everywhere. Singing, doesnt’t goaway from my mind.
No, do not be like this!. He was a human. And he's not Onew, he called himself  JinKi Lee. After all, they themselves (the angels) say that being like them and the devil aren’t  dead or never grow old nor ever young. They are magical creatures, and if it disappears, they disappear completely, destroyed. There is no reincarnation right?.
Well, I've convinced myself that way. Always. Every time. So, what am I doing here?.
I stood at the door of a soft green aluminum. In this hall there's only me. Of course, it is midnight. It's time for hospitals to ‘die’, at least for the these physicians hallway. The hallway smelled like antiseptic, like the smell of hospitals in general. The smell that makes me nostalgic.
I just stood there, stunned. When I open the front door. Bring up a young man wearing glasses that framed his almond eyes. His brown hair a mess.
"Oh? Good thing you came! Come on in! "He allow me to enter. He was very polite.
From the beginning, I was surprised. Why these people can see me. I mean from million people, why this person is very similar to Onew, who could see me?. And it's worse, he thought I was the janitor. -__-
"I forgot to put my pharmacopoeia. Can you help me? "He said bring me into a room and began lifting things around him, searching.
"how it’s shaped? The one you looking for? "
"Book! Pretty bold dark green. " he is still busy searching.
Okay, I confess. This is not the first time I came to see this Lee JinKi, after our first meeting - ah no, I found him. And though it's not a long time, I was able to conclude that it is just the physically same with Onew. He is completely different with Onew (I think) this guy is very clumsy.
First I found him, that when I tried to save him who fell down the stairs. When I met again after that, he just lost his note. Then I helped him find his stethoscope last week. Yet when I yelled at his ears when he was almost sat on a syringe in his own take. He really messed up.
"Hey! Is this What are you looking for?! "I pointed to a big thick book bound in dark green. I pointed to the book at random. The book was just sitting on the shelf of data from the outset.
"Oh! Wow! You're great! Yeah right! That's what I was looking for! Thank you! "He marched happily take it.
You must be joking. How could he not find a book as big and flashy as it is?.
"Uwwaaahhhh!" Brukkkkkkkbrakkkkbrrruuukkkk.
It feels like a joke. He fell off .... again. Buried his body as paper flying apart.
"Ahhhh, what are you doing? ~" I can not bear to see him. I took the sheets of paper that were scattered, walking toward him.
"Ah! Blood! "His voice calm.
I just stood dumb with the papers in my hand. I saw a familiar sight. Blood flowing from his hands. Slowly his thin tongue sweeps the blood. Lust-filled eyes to enjoy the bloodstains on his lips.
He isn’t Onew right?.

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My family happy!. My mom and dad happy. They say that they are happy to have me, they were proud of me. Graduated with the second highest ranking. I became a doctor with enough pride. A major hospital has received me even before I applied. On my 25th birthday  I was the youngest specialist. Although I was clumsy, people do not look down on me because of my efforts and abilities. I'm pretty friendly to people like those around me. There was no room for me to not be happy right?.
Then why are such bland. My life as something lose. Already since I could think about myself, I'm trying to remember what was missing from my self?. But I get all that I (or at least the people in general) want. If it's about something I have not ... how can I lose something, if I do not ever have it?.
"You worked hard as usual doctor Lee JinKi!" A young man dressed all in white stood leaning against the end wall of my room. folded his hands on his chest looked at me.
"Ehehe. Thank you! "I said. Sat down to rest my tired back in the seat cushion.
It's almost how long? I forgot. This man at first I thought he was a janitor. But then I started thinking, maybe he's not!.
"Hey! Do you always get the night shift? "I'm curious. Of course, I could not find him when the sun is shining brightly. He always comes when the moon shone silver in the black sky.
"Hmmmmmm, let's just say so!" A man dressed all in white, beautiful. his brown blond hair, glistening exposed by the moonlight. I recently realized that this man as his body coated with a fluorescent light or something like that. Which can make him always glowy.
He runs his body on the couch facing me. I am not unaware that he is often looked at me intently from his place. I'm not bothered. To a point, otherwise I even feel comfortable?. But despite that, I could not return his stare. My heart was beating weirdly when I see his's wet beautiful eyes.
"Sorry, but I'm tired! May I take a break? "Well, I was tired. Somehow I'm always tired when suddenly he is all around me. I dunno, maybe because my blood tense up and my body coordination can not be too well if around him. And close my eyes, helping me to resist the urge to look towards him.
Ahhhhh, the smell of autumn wind on the hill. I think this fragrance that makes me interested when we first met. He smelled like the wind. Calming. True, if you think now, how we can 'know' like this?. Since when do I let people I do not know enter my room?. since when my 'do not approach me' illness do not work? (At least to him).
I could inhale this sweet scented wind. This is a little drunk. My head dizzy. Transparent skin. Long eyelashes. Appeared as I opened my eyes. My lips like touching soft cotton silk. His lips?.
For a split second. My heart like in the pause mode when he lifted his face. let go of his soft lips away from my lips. he just stood there looking at me.
This feeling. I think I've felt it. Dejavu?. I  was disappointed when he walked away from me. Fear he would leave me. a sense of selfishness wanted to grasp him in my hands. The pain that I could not understand why.
"I'm sorry, doctor ... Lee!" He said. His face glazed with sadness. Closed. I've seen it.
I'm not even surprised when he floated away with the light of the moon through my window sidelines. I was too busy organizing my thoughts and heart.
What he took from me?.

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No! I said he is not Onew!.
Not dealing with the human world for 3 weeks. Did not produce anything at all!. It's useless!. Although I did not go to the man. Why my mind is full of him?.
Ahhhhh, I hope he does not forget to install the tool to complete his practice. Or fell or broke something.
What's this? Now my memory about Onew mixed with the memory of this clumsy Lee JinKi. He's a human!.
Eh? What is this? This is how Onew look at me when I was a human being?. Sting looks 'wrong'. It's a hassle. Unlike the angels who 'actually' which have no passion. I previously a human, of course, still have the passion. And it sucks!.
I really must do something. If not, my mind could explode with pointless thought.
"Key! Ah lucky I found you! Can you help me? "An eccentric angel. He approached me with a stack of parchment paper in her hand. She looks hassles with paper towering almost covered her face.
"Amber?" I took some of the papers from her hands.
"Fyuhhhhh ~ please help me with this death list," she said. She was sitting on the clouds where she stood. Put the piles of paper in front of her. I followed her to sit face to face.
"You sure I can do this?" Well, it's a little weird. Because I can not touch anything related to the birth and death. They told me, because I've had it (birth and death).
"It's okay! I was allowed to choose anyone for help! "Amber began sorting through the papers in front of her. Separating it into two piles.
I started doing what she does. "So? How do I do this? "
"Of course devide it! You see! On the right side of each paper there is a small carved box! In the box was marked, and some do not. Separate according to that! "She explained. without looking at me. And is still busy sorting out her papers section.
Parchment papers are dull and matted. Like dry brown spilled tea paper. On top of that written reasons of birth and birth date. With the the old ink. And time of death, reason and cause of death. Written in new ink.
I think this is true. I was not supposed lay my hand over the birth and death. Looking at these records make my emotions like a rose. Read the reasons they live. Read the reasons they died. I was curious. What is written in my notes at that time?. When I was born and died.
"Hey! Why they are this notes indicated, were separated? "
"I guess you'd have to ask this!" Amber takes most of my papers. "- You see? Each paper is marked, there is an additional note!. "
True. At the very bottom of the paper is marked, there are additional posts "last prayer?" I asked.
"Yes! That was the last prayesr will be granted! "Amber relaxed. Doing her job quickly.
Prayer? ... Hmmmmm prayer. Well, I remember. Someone once told me to pray and dream. Then it would come true. Whatever it is. God, you're so picky arn’t  you!. I believe in prayer in you and you are not granted until the end. And you grant the prayer- of these people?. Hhhhhh well, I never really prayed tho!.
I do not want to let go of this marked paper. My hands do not want to release this paper. A Name written in this paper. I know this name.
"What are you doing?! Key! Put it in here! "Amber reprimand me. thrusting her right hand full of marked paper.
I have to put this. What do I do?. My hands trembled put it marked paper on a pile of similar papers. I already told you, not him! Key, you are a substitute angel! It does not concern you!. Ah, no! No! Kibum! He is not Onew! Not someone you know!.
"Thank you Key! I went first to report this! "Amber flew away from me.
I'm still shaking. Note that not fake it?. Ah, of course not!. Then I saw the man's name?.
Lee JinKi
Born 12141989 (reincarnation)
Born for: to be reunited with the loved.
030 316 died
Cause of death: drowned.
Last spray: met again and loves a loved one.


He'll die today ----
His last prayer will be granted. His beloved?. Hmph, I have to say! He is not Onew. Who? Who is Lee JinKi love?. The reason he was born. His last prayer. Everything for his beloved. What is this? Why do I get annoyed like this?. Envy?. Upset?. This sucks!.
And already I say! Why am I here now?. Help of the pickup angels. The ship was completely submerged. I was here, in the sky above the ship that quickly sank in the big blue water.
Not only pickup angels that hover above the ship. Big black wings as well. Indicating that down there, there are some people who do the same thing I ever did before. Sell their souls to the devil. It sucks! Large black wings that just makes me remember him.
They began to go down to pick up the souls which separated from the body. I do not know how to do ‘pick-up’. I was just told to take the souls of the shuttle to the hereafter gate. Who will puck him up?. Hopefully he's got a powerful angel.
"Key! Help me! There is an additional list! Can you pickup the one that sank near the deck! "She shouted at me. Then  rush back down to the pick-up. "You just have to take his life, embraced it and pull it out of his body!"
"He? What? I do not know how to do it! Hey! "What was he thinking?.
What should I do?. Ah well, if I did not do this. The life cycle will going awry. And I can not even imagine what would happen to me if it happened because of me. Deck of the ship? Gosh! Deck was not visible. Was completely drown. Hopefully I'm not too late.
There is not anyone!. The deck was empty. I did not find anything in the lait in this deck. I narrowed my eyes. trying to get a better view inside this dark water. I saw it. A man is getting away. Sinking deeper and deeper. Oh no!.
Onew?!. Ah no, Lee JinKi?!. Why is this my fate?. I saw him. sink. his brown hair swaying covered most of his face. his hands and feet do not move tricked by the calm water. There was no sign of life from his nose. No.
Key Take of his soul!. Just take the soul of a man. He is not Onew. I just intergued by this body. Body who has a heart that can feel love. I just have to take .... his soul. My hand is very heavy. It would not move in accordance with my brain told me to. Inside those chest is there a heart that can feel love.
It's cold. Are like at that time. It's cold fingers touched my face. I saw him smiling with his pale lips. I could not move.
"Kibum!" His lips without voice calling my name. Smiling.
Either the water is heavy or his hand. I pulled toward him. I do not know. I do not know.
"If it has been like this -" he whispered in my neck. how could he do this?. We are in the water. There was no air. He should have been unable to speak or do anything. "You know? When I first saw you ... I want to cry. I do not know why? - "He started hugging me tighter. "It feels like thousands upon memory forcibly crammed into my head. My chest tightness. I blurred the view. Then a second before I realized. If you're missing. You're my happiness puzzle pieces. The  important piece to make my happiness complete. Ahhhhhh I'm so stupid. How could I forget you? " his hand on Laying my head on his neck. "The only thing that could complement this heart".
God, if I pray now. Are you going to grant it?.
His weak body, let me go. He smiled. The Smile that erase all the memory in my head.
"God really grant my last prayer! ahhhhhh love it this way? "
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"Kibum? Errrrrr Key? - "White room. Ah no, this room is rather transparent and not solid. Drain and cool. I like sitting in a calm lake water. And in front of me sitting a pretty beautiful figure. I'm already sure he is someone I love.
"You're awake?" He smiled. Tipped his body closer to me. "I've been waiting for you long time!" He said spoiled.
Ah, I'm already dead. Yes, of course! I would die if I drownlike that. But ___
"Why am I here? What is he doing here? It's on your mind - do you? "Like to read my mind, he touched my cheek gently. What is this?. I guess miracles only come once?. Well, when I die and meet with him and reveals all on him. It is a miracle.
"This is a haven for reincarnation!" He said. rested his head on my shoulder. "Where humans are born again into a new".
But, did he not human?. Is not he an angel or something?. "Then why are you here? You're not a human right? ".
"Hehe, you think only your prayers are answered?!" He said teasingly. I do not understand. "Soon we will be reborn. With the newtime, new body. New story. "He hugged my arm.
"What? You also reincarnated? "
He nodded.
"No! Do not! What if I lose you again? What if we sparated again? "
The room began to move downward spiral.
"You know? With  that heart ~ I'm sure you'll be able to find me! "He smiled. Removing his arm from my hands.
The room is starting as it rotates. Like my body is sucked into the vortex.
"But ---" I do not want to let go of him!.
 He began to disappear in the bare white room. I started to go with this white air.
"Lighten up. If it about my heart!. My heart was already in the set to love you! "  he said. Before desappear.
Ah yes. I thought, I'm also pretty confident with this heart. This heart will surely come back to find him.


"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet regardless of time, place or circumstance.
The thread may stretch or tangle, but it will never break."


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If Only
keyzy_kyumsy

Title                                       : If Only

Author                                  :keyzy_kyumsy

Genre                                   : Fluff

Rating                                   : G

Summary                             : this is just the story abt jealousy or dissatisfaction
A/N                                      : would you mind to watch this I tried to make that for my old/previous fic. and abt this fic,, i just feel to write this.... I made this in 1 hour, so pardon for eevvverrryyy thingy!

 

 

If only ...
If only I was as cheerful as her.


She stood in a way that somehow makes her like she was floating. I'm sure, in his view this girl is like a butterfly in flight hovering beautifully.


"The girl who’s always happy! Haha do not you think? Kibum? "He approached me with his Puffy face. inflate his cheek gave place to smile on his lips. His eyes disappear as a wide smile painted on his happy face.


"Sigh ... Well, Luna is like that right? Her world is always happy! "Is not my habit to fake a smile or lying to myself. I turned my face to the window on my right. Right after I gave him a unsatisfied sigh.

Why can’t I always cheerful?


"Hmmm? So you're not always happy Kibum? "He cocked his head. Thrusting his face into my face with a stupid smile.


A pleasant face to look at. "... of course! How can one always be happy! And I usually do not pretend to always be happy! "I like this openness has become a habit. I just can’t lie.


"You're not happy?"
"No! ... not always! You, too, are you always happy? "
"Yes. I'm always happy! At least as long as with you, I'm always happy. So, you're also supposed to be happy! Ok? "That its been said after the sudden kiss my cheek and Blushing on his own.


If I’m as cheerful as Luna.
===
If only my voice as beautiful as hers.


On the small that screen my eyes can’t be separated from him. Can’t always hide his charisma perfectly. Even now he still showcased his soft voice beautifully. The lyrics are heavily strung with his beautiful voice.


No need to look at her as deep as that. No need to approach her that close. Always do it well. Duet. Anyone your duet partner, you're always doing it this well. With her beautiful voice and yours. High tones that my voice can not be achieved. Beautiful Hummings that could not come from my lips. The voices that I don’t have. You keep singing match them. With your voice that still stand out even compared with their melodious voices. How many times I watch this show, I always feel uncomfortable.


"Kibum hey! You think, I can sing ‘my first kiss’?!! "
"Huh?! With your voice! I think not! "Your voice is too beautiful for it.
"If so, why do not you sing a song that my voice can go with it?"
"What do you want?! Do not start weird! "
"it’s obivious so I can sing with you! Why can Taemin’s can, but mine can’t?! "


If my voice as beautiful as Jessica's.
===
If only my smile as bright as hers.


It's really noisy. Taemin is very excited to sit closest to the TV. He wants to see his two hyungs 'fight' over the girls. After Minho and JinKi home from Thailand with a variety of stories that excite Taemin.
"He really chose Lizzy!" Jjong shouted in disbelief.
Patted JinKi shoulder reflex.
"See! Right?! I already told you, he's been that way since we first started Filming! "Minho responded with enthusiasm, pointing at the TV screen.
"Hyung! You really are stubborn! In any event before you choose Lizzy too! Rumor hyung! Rumor! " Taemin with a big grin teasing JinKi.
"You do so clumsy old man!” I glared.
"Auoooowwwwww. Kibum ~ ~ do not you know that I like that kind of smiling face right? ~? "He laughs response for all.


If my smile as bright as Lizzy’s.
===
If only I were a ...


I like After School’s Lizzy.
Women who are kind and gentle.
Women who are not boring.
Women who if I saw her I would fall in love.
I do not know, maybe if I saw her I will know if I like her or not.


 ‘criteria for your dream woman?' Has always been one compulsory question in each interview session. And you never really answered it.


So, anyone. As with anything else. As long as she is a woman, you may can be in love?.


If I were a woman.
===


"... if only I was not Kim Kibum. "just out of my mouth. I saw the shocked look on JinKi face. Looked at me incredulously. "Ah, I mean - I - if I was  a cheerful girl with a beautiful voice and delicate face, you don’t have to force yourself to me right? Hahahaha look at your self! You look awkward if with me ".


"Do not give me a face like that! You know, that's right, if I'm not Kibum you'll probably have a love life---- you know, more normal! "Yes. I already said. Well, please go.


"If only you were happy with me. if only you liked my voice. if it at least you like my face. may be easier for me to not be jealous of all people around you! "in his arms I could hear his heart beating fast. Embraced me with a sudden trembling and screaming. It wasn’t like him.


"If you were not Kibum? If you were not Kibum, then to whom this love should I give!you! I’ve falling this hard! Please be aware- "I could hear him murmur in my head. I just shudder when he started kissing and sniffing my hair.


If only time could stop at this point.


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that's all....my gawd I'm sorry I came with this fic instead of the continued from 'a pact with the devil' I just feel to write this now....
sorry~~~~~
all are welcome
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is it still a pact? or a fate?
keyzy_kyumsy
Title    : Is It Still a Pact? or a Fate?
Author :keyzy_kyumsy
Pairing : Onkey(Key's POV)
Genre  : Monologue
Rating  : G
Sum    : at first, I wondered why I did not go to hell?



Shortness!. Sore!. My heart was beating painfully. My heart rates no longer in tune with the flowing time. My lips are no longer able to make a sound. I hold his cold pale hand. His sharp nails like digging into my palm. I put it on my chest, hoping he could feel what my heart feels. I love him.

I close my eyes. I'm sure my feelings had been conveyed through his pale fingers that remain I hold in my chest. I closed my eyes deeper. Preparing to disappear, vanished from this world.

That was cold. A drop of cold black water dripping onto my cheeks. I opened my eyes and can not be closed quietly anymore. He was on top of me. When I saw him, with the grieving face just few inches above my face. His red eye which is the source of the black water drops wet and blurry. Scattered black feathers. His  black wings were destroyed. It's like black snow filled the room. His pale lips touched mine. It hurts. Don’t! Don’t disappear!.

 "AH! ... huh?!” hahhhhh been so long I didn’t dream it. Such an old dream.

Well, it has been very long since I have a dream. A dream when the last moments of my life as a human being.

Since when? I cant remember. I live now. But I have no heart. My heart was beating. I'm also not sure myself, what am I?. I should have gone now. I should have perished. Or at least, I should be in hell to receive my punishment for my dirty blood.

But you will not believe where I am now. I was lying on a cloud right now. I can step on the empty air and flying. No, no! I'm not a ghost. There are no ghosts in this world. What are they saying? Hmmm, angelic backup?.  That’s why now i could see everything that i couldn’t see when I’m just a human. If you can see from down there. Big cold gray clouds. I could see from up here. The heavy gray clouds is just a bunch of prayers that can’t delivered and some tears that didn’t get drips.

Actually, this is the job of angels to bring down rain. Gives another blessing for the dumped prayers. But you see? Now, I doing it. It's a bit annoying.

“Key! Key! You're done with it? Please help me! Replace me to keep my post!. I have to help the instruction division. A petite blond angel with her ​​small white wings yelling at me from the end of clouds on my other side.

"WHA-?! Hey! Hey! I haven’t even finished with this! Hey wai-! Wai-hey! Hey". Ah, how long is this?. Why do all the angels work must be assigned to my wishes? I'm not even really an angel. There's no wings on my back, no white circle above my head. I can only float and in visible.

The angel who had just left one more job for me, She is Luna. Actually she is an angel of the moon (from her name even you can already guess) then I know and was surprised. Because she is the angel who picked me when I crossed my life line.

When I asked her, why am I still (as) life? ' She said 'because you are in heaven'.

And when I asked why I could be in heaven?. Where the devil who supposed to take my sold soul?. She even went flying, paired  golden earrings in my left ear and say 'you're god slave now'.

'You sin, your blood is dirty. You don’t deserve your foot in heaven. But, God cant throw you into hell. The devil who was doing pact with you was already destroyed. You're a replacement angel from now on '.

And that's how I became like this. It's more like an angels servant. Because I've become a 'human' and a siner. So I cant really become angels. When I ask, why not put me to hell then?. They said 'you're guilty for having made ​​a pact with the devil. That’s unforgivable.  But, you rise a love in a devil. To bring in such a feeling into a creature which isn’t even given a heart, it's a beautiful thing that makes you not possibly go to hell '.

All I know from that ‘information’ is He loved me.

Always makes me nostalgic. Luna’s place. Place of my first assignments as a substitute angel. A small oak oriental style table. Above the table was displayed a small silver box engraved with such as Russian carvings . Besides the small table sits a velvet cushion, looks soft and comfortable with golden buttons in the middle of it. And lilac fragrant stinging from a small jar of aromatherapy in the corner. The room is crowded and narrow. In fact at first I wondered, how Luna can go into here with her wings?. Before I know that angels can hide their wings (something that makes me envious -__-).

According to me, Luna’s job is the most tedious job. Her job is just to make sure the moon can Visible To the eyes of those who are lonely. And giving them little feelings of company.

I opened the small silver box on the table. Inside there is a purple bulkhead that separates the contents of the box into two distinct parts. A small section containing the silver powder with soft mint-scented. Another larger side box only seen a few scattered of luminous and glowing patches. This La Luna box if you call in a human language. It's like an observation box. Larger parts of the box is like a monitor that can show people who are lonely. Side of this box there is even a part of such player to zoom in and zoom out. Pretty interesting. Silver mint-scented powder is a floo dust to give warmth accompany feeling. I just sprinkled some powder on top the phosphorescent glow that visible at the other side of the box.

This is a bit of irony. I'm working on this task. Giving  feelings of companionship. While I'm alone so lonely. I turn the snail shell shaped carving on the outside of the monitor box. I zoom in tiny phosphorescent glow-in the monitor so it looks larger phosphorescence. I zoom in again until I see the shape of human figures with a lonely heart a faint purplish glow. I was thinking, that time, Did Luna saw my heart too? From this box?. If so, Luna’s work isn’t very useful. At the time, when I was a human being. Though I see the moon, I still feel lonely!. Or maybe, Luna didn’t sprinkled this silver powder into my heart back then?. Tch!.

I'm very curious, how my heart looks like back then?. Is purplish like a girl with braids who buried her face, forcing his eyes tracing the writings in her textbook. When all the lights in her house had gone out?. Or dim greenish like a man who standing smoked cigarettes in his frustration over the overpass in the middle of town?. Or fluoresce red with silvery smoke-like fog covering it. Beautiful. Belongs to a man wearing a white coat with a stethoscope hanging on his neck. Sitting sustain his forehead with the palms of his hands.

Ahhhhh, you know? I was also lonely like this. Hah, I'm curious. Do I still feel lonely like this if he doesn’t perish?. Would it be better if he had taken my soul? Whether I will not feel lonely when I'm in hell? Would be very nice if he is here!.

Is the man standing on the bridge had just lost his lover?. Is a girl with braids’s friends shunned her?. Is the man in a suit has no one precious in his life?.

It's almost God knows how long. The black color of the sky had begun to fade. And the figures with their heart that fluoresce starting to look a bit obvious. And I really can not ignore this one's figure. Men who wear white coats. As long as I dropped my eyes on him, he had almost fell three times. Knocking some stuff when he passed by. Unlike the owners of other lonely hearts. This guy is very not like a lonely one. With more beautiful glowing heart.

Oh, all right. I am also an angel right? (Though a replacement). I can help mankind. I went down immediately to where the guy who is now with the careless run going down the stairs. And I know he would have fallen, with his unsteady gait and his unbalanced step.

Though late, it's pretty good. I had pushed him a little, so that his head didn’t get hit hard the stairs. Ah, a careless human.

"Huh? Who are you?! "Strange voice, which sounds like a nassal sound. This human. This careless man was sitting looking at me.

Eh? Eh? What? Why he could see me?. I looked around me. And it was just me and him here. I was supposed to be invisible. I've been a magical creature right?.

"You're a new janitor?!" Asked him. Clueless.

Huh? HUH?!

I'm confused. I just sat with back against the wall. Looking at my looks. White shirt, white pants. Do I look like a janitor?.

"Okay, can you help me? I lost my surgery sandals. Can you get the new one for me? "He approached me in a weird way and bowed. Align his eyes with mine.

My heart shouldn’t beating. Because it is already nearly 300 years, my heart stopped beating. Maybe this is just an illusion or a nostalgic feeling that gives me a beating heart.

I know that almod eyes. I know those lips. I know those hands. I know it's brown hair. The only difference is no big pair of black wings on his back. No fangs protruding from his lips. And  dark brown color replaces the red wine color of his eyes. And there's a smile on his lips?. Onew?.

"Oh, you'd be surprised. Yeah, I'm a new doctor here. Looks like I'll be a lot of trouble you started today. I'm Lee JinKi! Please take care of me! "He bent.

God, you must be kidding me.




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okay, that's it. actually I don't even know what's happened with my mind while wrote this(?) like I said before, I'm still in my mourning state. so.....errrrrmmmmm I'm sorry.
all are wellcome*bows* hugs*
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A Pact With The Devil
keyzy_kyumsy
Title        : A Pact With The Devil
Author     : keyzy_kyumsy
Pairing    : OnKey
Genre     : Fantasy/angst(slightly)
Rating     : PG-15
Summary :


Humans are simple creatures, they are useless, I never even felt a single delicious soul of them. I helped Cleopatra get the incomparable beauty and she still wasn’t satisfied. Pharaohs ruled the world I helped them, but they still wants to compete with god. Human beings are greedy useless.
Give a drop of blood from your veins as a binder ...
Put it above the mirror, when the second where the day goes ...
I grant all your wishes ...
Then give up your soul ...
We'll make a deal.
Let’s make a pact with me.

***
Like all the countless pact which I have made. I always know, who are next will sell his soul and make an a pact with me. How do I say this? You can feel the devil greed, anger, hatred, or disappointment and despair. What used to be the basis of human decision to sell their soul to me.

Now I'm standing here, in a small round mirror that reflects the shadow of someone who is so beautiful to the size of a human being. I could feel the hatred, disappointment and despair that struggled in his heart.

I whisper my temptation. It's easy, because people already have the basic feels like this. It makes us easy to tease them. what they call 'sin' is not entirely our fault.

"Let's make an agreement ...".

Works every time. A little whisper can make humans do stupid things and sell their souls cheaply. a man was holding a razor with a trembling in his right hand. I look into his eyes. a wistful look in the mirror and looked at me as if that he knows I was in it. Beautiful eyes. Shiny brown and full of memories but also empty at the same time.

I miss that time. Moment where a human being collect all the sin in their heart and give them a drop of blood as a binding promise. Surprised because I was too busy that my tongue felt a different from all the blood binder I have ever felt. This blood is bitter and strange because falling along with the odd drop of water. How can human call this water? Tears?.

"Don’t be surprised like that!" I can reveal myself to him now. He was the soul candidate who will be mine.

"Are you real?" Young men in front of me just looked at me with surprise. Mirror dropped from his lap.
A similar reaction. Well, with a pair of black wings and red wine pupils, we were drifting and appeared out of thin air. Of course the reaction we get is always like this.

"So ... what do you want?beautiful-" His blood taste different. It makes me want to taste it again. "I will do everything ...". I could feel fear creeping in his heart. When I stuck my thirst with blood tongue. Sweeping his flowing blood from his veins.

"I ... can see you?" Said weirdly. Looked at me quizzically. Not scared or surprised look.

"Of course! You are calling me! All right! Let's make this quick! What do you want? "Of course, I wanted to get his wishes granted. I've never been this hungry. I can already imagine the special flavor of his soul. Maybe it was the same delicious soul with the blood of its binder. I wanted to eat him.

"You're really going to grant it all?" He said doubtfully.

"Say it! I turn down everything! "

He's a dying. An incurable disease that lodged in his body. His eyes could only see the blur. Ahhh, no wonder he was shocked when he saw me. I must have seen very clearly in his world of blur. I know it all when his blood felt like reached my stomach.

Mastering everything for the rest of his life? Cure his disease? Restore his eyesight? What? What does he want?. Well, he probably would ask things like that. Like any other human. being greedy. Wanted everything, wanted to live longer.

"Can you accompany me?" He said suddenly. Stepped up to me. Terrible, I hate stupid creatures like humans. By reflex I backed away from his outstretched hands trying to grab me.

"I mean ___ ah, can you accompany me until I die?" He said again. After stopping his steps. He  realize I did not want was approached.

"What? Hey! A request! I will only grant a request! You have to say it clearly! Use it well! Use it to satisfy you! "I explained to him. It seems he didn’t understand what is meant by 'a request'. If it’s just accompany, you can ask your friends or family. I mean, i mighty enough to grant such a wish like ‘take over the world!’.

"Yes, I've said it right? My request? "Said his back was sitting on the patient bed. "Eummmm whether it is less clear?" He said looking at me.

"I did’t hear a demand for anything!" I did’t hear it. There’s no a selfish request coming to my ears. Or greedy desires.

"Hahhhhhh, there is a class of demons that as slow as you huh?" What he, this man has just denounced me?. "Okay sir devil, don’t let me feel lonely for the rest of my life! Please grant me that! ".

Huh? What? He just wants it?. For his soul?. I mean  .... Isn’t that not profitable for him?.

"You know? Kibum sir, you will only live about 173 hours 19 minutes. That's not a long time! Don’t you want something to satisfy you? I mean something bigger! ".

"Hehehe, you're not even divulge the time of my death. Whaha I get a bonus! "He said happily. Why? What makes him happy to know the time of his own death?. "Right? Since you already know my time, isn’t it so easy for you? Make me not lonely only for 173 hours 11 minutes! That is my request! ". He said quietly.

Once again I thought, I was used to provide power, beauty, satisfaction and its other similar. Eliminate the disease, removing obstacles even eliminate human lives which they call 'the enemy'.

But, how to eliminate loneliness?.

***
An angel told me, that the cure for loneliness is love. What's this? I never deal with things like 'love'.

"Give him a person who can give him a love!" An angel of my acquaintance laughed at me. When I asked how to eliminate loneliness.

But, she glared at me. When I said to her "if so, you can love him right? You're an angel! The angel was always proud of what could be they 'heart' do, right? ".

"Not a love like our love! Ahhhhhh creatures without a heart like you wouldn’t understand! The  love must to be special, not like our love. Because angel’s love is equal ". Luna said. With her blondy hair and chubby cheeks she roar her white wings, leaving me with arrogance.

She left me after saying the words that I don’t understand. Totally useless to ask her.

Beautiful young man is sitting wistfully on the couch in the back window of his hospital room. This includes our ability as devil, in just 3 hours I already know the condition of my  'partner'. He is a man of his own. When I mean his own, he was completely alone.
"Ah! Eventually you come sir Devil! "He said happily when I looked it myself. "From this morning, I think certainly if you're so hard working  huh?" He's talking nonsense.

"Huh? What do you mean? "

"I mean, how’s do you work? Doing well? "

 What he was collecting his demand? Or what?
"Shut up! I certainly will grant your request! "I'm upset. "Hey! Don’t you want to change your request? I'm good, so I give you the opportunity to change your request! "

"Eeeeehhhhh? Did I give you trouble? "

Shit! This human look down on me?.
"Alright! All right! "I touched this man's forehead with my finger. This is how we make / find all the memory and who and where are the people who had contact with this body.

It's weird, I like reading these pages with full of holes. This person memory isn’t fully formed.

Devil can’t feel anything the 'heart' do. Because we haven’t any. Okay, it's strange if I was pounding because I don’t have a heart or any heart for it. When the human bony fingers are touching the my my black wings feathers. I you know? Pounding?.

"You have wings and beautiful eyes ~ hemmmmm sir devil we haven’t even introduce ourself properly? Your name? "He whispered gently. Well, since when humans could whisper in a way we whisper? It’s tempting.

"O .... Onew! "Okay, I started thinking. Perhaps the human touch is not so bad?.
---
How could any human being doesn’t have full memory?. Already I touch his forehead. I had closed his eyes. There's nothing I can take from all of his memories. All the grooves have no memory of its core property! All empty. So, what is loneliness?.

"Huh? It's very rare! You're asking me? me? "A  pomo guy infrint ofme, is my junior. or I say he is the new devil. But don’t misunderstand the green-eyed man is, he has reached the same level as me. With his ability to seduce human with lust and desire.

He even teased human just to have fun. Basically we tempt human to take their soul so that we can live. Do you know? Like humans need food to live. We ate lust, desire, hatred of the human soul.

"Never mind! I'm sure, from one of your slaves, there might be something like that right? "I started to not want to deal with him.

"Hmmmmmm lonely? I guess it kind of feeling. Don’t you think? "he plays his shiny accessories on his neck.

"Jjong I'm serious!" He sucks.

"Ahahaha .... Oh come on! Why so serious? You've lived thousands years and to grant thousands of exchange as well. Now why all of a sudden like this?”  Now he reflects. leafing through his black leather jacket.

"You really not help!" I don’t want to tell him if I tried hard way, because the soul is at stake here is very different. A delicious and special soul. If I say this to him, what if he wants to seize it?. No.
I stood to take my sins compass. And soar my wings to go. My wings still flapping when Jjong suddenly threw a crumpled purple paper at me.

"Huh?"

"From memory that you showed in me just now, I guess that there was a relationship!" He said indifferently. "Don’t ask me wher I got that! You will not believe! "He added.

The Paper it looks like a ragged purple wedding invitation paper. With a gold-colored ink and penmanship, on paper it is etched Choi Minho & Jung SooJung. When I took the paper, yeah! I could feel some chunks of memory with the 'smell' Kibum there. But what this relationship with loneliness?.
Never mind! I will not ask again on Jjong. I re-soar my wings with purple paper in my hand.

"Hey! If you ask about loneliness, a feeling ... it's just useless human beings who live only for others who can feel that thing! "He said with dreamy eyes some where. He's weird.

"It doesn’t help Jjong! I don’t understand! "

"Ahhhhhhh, just give him a lot of people!" I heard a perfunctory tone of his voice. It makes me annoyed.

"Hey! Just a suggestion! Don’t be too keen on it!a  Human you choose now, it seems not to be too much fun! "he said half-screaming, because I've flapping my wings away.

Oh? Choi Minho is his lover? When I feel the names carved on the purple paper with my nails and follow the 'smell' of Kibum that left in this purple paper. Kibum smell like the smell of sadness here. It's odd, but nothing Choi Minho in his memory.

"Onew!" He smiled broadly and waved his hands excitedly. Other human beings who might see him, would think if he was crazy. Waving and smiling to the thin air outside the window of his hospital room. And since when he call me by my name?. Sigh.

"You're a late today?" He stuck his head out the window trying to get close to me. "So? How does your job today? "He reversed his body immediately, when I entered through the window and stood beside his infusion pole.
"Hey! You are really impatient! "He asked about my job again. He really wanted me to finish his request immediately. It sucks.

"Huh?" He gave me clueless face. "You're weird Onew. He shifted his sitting position. Counts the space on the couch. "Can you sit here Onew?”. He patted the empty space on the couch beside him.
"No!" Of course not. I don’t want to close with this human. Not after a few hours ago he touched me and gave me a strange feeling.

"Heeeeeeeeeee? Why? " he pouted spoiled.

"There ‘s not enough space for my wings!" I replied flatly.

"OUCH!! HEY WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! "This human!. Suddenly he 'grabbed' my wings with his bony fingers.

"this wings! Those eyes! Both make me upset! "He said angrily. "Why don’t you hide this wing? Like the demons in the movie! And pretend to be a human? ". Humans are annoying.

"ahhh forget it! Onew, tell me more! Tell me again about all the requests you ever granted! "He said like a child who can’t wait for his bedtime stories.

Yesterday, or rather 23 hours ago. I told a few requests I've ever done as an exchange. I told him about Cleopatra requesting the unparalleled beauty. I told him about the Pharaoh who asked solid power. I told him about the world's first murder by Cain. With hope he’ll change his request to a similiar one with their. But the response I received was not so good. He was even more interested in stories that I tell rather than their kind of request.

"This is not a story about me, it's about my friend!" I could an idea. Well, maybe if I tell him about this, he would be interested in and change his mind.

"Your friend? He is also a devil? "He said enthusiastically.

I nodded quietly, automatic grin painted on my lips. "He is Jjong! A powerful lustful devil! "I started my story with enthusiasm. It probably will work. "- About 4 months ago, he got a prey to gain him a great strength"

"Heeeeeee? 4 months ago? It's still new ~ he sat closer to me.

"- Yes, request from a girl!. He answers a request, but with a lot of sense!. He was to be overwhelmed. " This is really happening, and I hope I'll do a request like that, too. "She was just asking the person she loves belonged to her entirely. Only just for her." I look straight into his eyes. I can already see it in his mind.

"A loved one? What is good? "His dreamy voice.

"Are you kidding? No one asks a good thing to us the devil! Well, I go on. That’s a simple request right? But no! It turned out that  the girl's loved one was had a lover and a friend of many people. And with his loving family. Do you know? Even so, the girl still get whats he wants. The man belongs only to her now. " My voice has changed in seductive tone.

Hmph, how? You'll be tempted. I can make Choi Minho become your own, Kibum.

"And ___ what about all the people around her loved ones? ~"

Hey-hey-hey ~ why not tempted?.

"hahhhhhhhh we  the devil have several ways to overcome it!"

"---- Like to make people forget all memory of the man? And leave everyone? "He said suddenly in a tone of sadness. His eyes looked at some where?. "But it's very lonely ..." he said looking at me. Quizzically.
"A person who her loved _______ was my lover. Mr. devil! Choi Minho ____ I guess .... "He said with a resigned tone. "I know that all Onew! Your friend is also the one who tought me  how to make a pact withe the devil ... .. "

What? For a while, it did make me a little bit surprised. But does not it become easier for me?. This bit gives me the opportunity to offer some interesting options for his soul.

"So _____ do you want to win back your lover, Kibum?"

---

It was very frustrating. Kibum didn’t change his request. When I offer to take back his Minho Choi. He even said to take care of my own business!. What is its mean?. There's no time! My time was only 21 hours away. If I can’t grant his request, then his soul will never be mine.
 
"Onew, where are you going to bring me?" With a spoiled smile he holds my sleeve. I've decided. Jjong told me, that he did grant the selfish request for a girl named Jung SooJung and erase all memory and all the feelings that possessed Choi Minho. People who the girl wanted. If so, I just need to put Kibum among the people he knew and probably close to Choi Min-ho, right?. He will not be lonely right?. I'm a genius.

"Shut up! I will grant your request! "I'm sure this will work. And his soul belongs to me.

It was a large garden with neatly trimmed grass. A white garden chairs sitting pretty under a maple tree in the middle European-style garden. Some people seemed happy to spread in the garden. Of course, this way he will not be lonely right?. All these people are the ones that I can collect in accordance with her memory that I can read. They were his friends, his brothers and even I make his boyfriend come too.

I closed both Kibum eyes. Its proper positioning him to overlooking the garden. It's only 12 hours away. I managed to grant his wish. And I don’t have to wait long to take his soul later.
I remove my hand from his eyes. I give a special gift for him. I returned his vision for a while. Special treatment from me. For delicious soul that will be mine.
 
"What is this? Where? "He said. Confused and a little surprised.

This is bad. It's even far away from what I predicted. There was no smile of satisfaction from his face. I even saw the look of fear on his face. Shaking his hand covering his face.

"What are you doing? I can see them! why are you doing this to me? "he was hysterical. "TAKE ME BACK! ".

"What? They are the people who you want right? "I'm confused. Of course.

"RESTORE ME!" He cried shouting.

I'm confused. I just saw this creature in front of me crying regulate his breathing. He was just sobing from when we arrived back in his hospital room. There’s no his usual laugh. Usually these creatures have never been this quiet before. These creatures usually only scold me if I don’t do thing he wants.

"___ Why are you doing this to me? __ You think it easy? Convincing myself that I would be fine without him?without them? __ "His talk was unclear. He kept rubbing his face. Trying to dry his tears. "Why are you so stupid sir devil Onew? ___ You're stupid! __ "He cried.

I'm getting sick. "Stop calling me stupid! It makes me annoyed! Then what you want? You just call me for a game right? You don’t really want something right? You think your soul so will be saved? Hmph! Pathetic Human! Of course not! Once you're dealing with devil, your soul is dirty! Your blood is flowing in me! You ta-"I can not finish all my babble.

His tongue into my mouth. What should I do?. Sense of shock, only passing a few seconds in my head. I'm confused. what to do? Pulled my tongue? So that his tongue could dance freely in my mouth? Or what?. I'm still confused, and he took out his tongue from my mouth. Licked his red lips and looked at me.
Oh my, I think Jjong ever did that to human too. What he called it?. A kiss?!.

"___ In the beginning, I didn’t want anything. I no longer want to live, my body’s useless with this disease. I've lost my appetite in people since the one Iloved dumped me. I just did a pact to see who has been helping people who took my beloved. But, when you show up and not the devil who met me before. And you took all the bitterness in me, swallowing my dierty blood that  I hate. And your eyes show a passion to wanting me. I began to wanting many things ___ "
 
I guess this is over when he stoped talking, but not. He caught my jaw and started licking my lips. I opened my mouth slowly and in a time like an instant. His tongue had returned to dance in my mouth. I don’t know what, but our tongues danced together to the time that God knows how long. His hands move around my neck. Bring me closer to him. He pushed me close to his bed hospital. Our mouths still locked together.

"No! Not like this! "I woke up from what the world knows?. My mouth full of saliva. And it feels like hard to breathe. I don’t even need to breathe?.

"___ Since that moment, I want you! Mr. Devil ___ "His eyes didn’t waver at all when he said that.

Only 119 minutes left. And I'm here, somewhere. Hovering above the black night sky. Escape?. I run away?. He wants me?. What the fuck?.

Thus, his eye sight. His spoiled voice. His laughing face. That's the reason why it feels weird!. I always feel strange feelings whenever I see, hear or feel his touch?. Because he wants me?. Like my head would burst. My chest hurt! My chest itch.

73 minutes remaining. Why did I return?. What did he do?. I saw him curled up in his hospital bed. Clutching his chest. He looks in pain.
He turned away, when I burst into his room.
" __ Onew? __ Hhhhhhhhh hhhh thanks god, you're back __ " he smiled looking at me helplessly. "This ___ hhhh my time___ hhh not end__ hhhhhh yet__” he said in suffer.

"What are you doing?!" This man is stupid or what? He was still able to reach emergency button!. And he did just looked at me with pain.

No! He could die. He will die if it continues like this. I pressed the emergency button in a hurry. Hoping  doctor or nurse will come to save him. No! Don’t die.

I hear little chuckles. When I panicly pressing emergency button. I saw Kibum chuckled to see me.
"__ Hhhhh hehe ___ hhhh you're funny __ Onew! Hhhh hehe why are you __ tries to save me? Hhhhh khhehe __ "he laughed grabbed my hand. And put my hand on his chest and hold it tightly. And smiled at me. "You understand ___ hhhhhh ___ hhh Onew? __ "He said.

I know his intentions. When I touched his chest. This human heart is saying "I love you". Then what should I do?.

"Soon. __A few minutes more, you can take the my soul  __ thank you! __ this 173 hours was very pleasant. ___ You accompany me __ so I'm not lonely __ "

No! Don’t!.
Very heavy rain. The sky was very dark. And this may be the end of me. Of course this is terrible. If a devil can both 'feel' and  sense the things that normally done by a heart. Then it's the end of that devil. If a devil have a shimphaty. Then he lost his wings. If a devil weep. Then he lost his self.

Perish from this world.
But, nothing more terrible than to see this human. Kibum. Disappeared from my sight. I don’t mind disappear. I've had enough of life for thousands of years. I don’t mind losing myself. I've been pretty bored. It's okay to lose everything. I was lucky enough to get a love.

A drop of odd black water out of my usually dry eyes. It drop on Kibum cheek. I saw his wide-eyed brown eyes . Both eyes were as reluctant to blink looking at my shathered wings. Had my lips felt as sweet cherries from his mouth. Yeah this is the sweetest taste I've ever have. Well, this is a pretty good end to a devil.

will we meet again KiBum?



I think this will be continued like--> this
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well, this has been a loooooooooong time since the vid's out yeah, but world just keep me away from net for such God knows how long~
I'm still in mourning tho.
so,,please do read and I'm sorry for everything.
and everything is wellcome
*bows*

In Grief
keyzy_kyumsy

Tittle                        : In Grief

Author                     :[info]keyzy_kyumsy

Pairing                     : OnKey

Genre                      : Angst

Rating                      : pg

Summary                 : in happy, I believe
you will be able accompanied with love
in grief, I ask ...
how your heart speaks?

A/N                          : This is only because I heard a song that good in my ears. This song title is 'in grief' by letto. This actually is a song that speaks in  my native language. (words in green are the lyrics. I tried to translate it. so, I think, partly mess. (sorry;_;))

in happy, I believe
you will be able to accompanied with love
in grief, I ask

how your heart speaks?

Ambulance siren. The red evening sky. Smoke. Footsteps in a hurry. Hysterical voices. Blood.
Bloodied arm curled around my injured waist.


"Kibum, __ you okay?" Weak hoarse voice from the body lying beside  me.


Dark.


Tears. Cold room. Sad faces. Without him.


"Impossible!"

"Maybe he will no longer together with SHINee!"

"Why? He'll be fine! Will be cured! Just like me! Just like Taemin! Just like you! "

"Who are you kidding? He will be paralyzed! "

__ Hurt.

"Ahh!" I woke with a start. My eyes widened to see around. My breath irregular. My room?. That dream again.

"You okay?"

I turned toward the familiar voice. My throat is dry. He’s sits there on his bed.

" __ is okay!" I re-set my breath. Calm down!.

"_ Bad dream?" He asked again. I don’t want to see him.

I woke up from my bed. Taemin still asleep curled up in a bed next to mine. The light was still burning brightly. Silent. Clock ticking sound so clear. It's 3 am.
What is he doing at this hour? Why still awake?.

"Yes! Just a bad dream _ " I stood up from my bed, my throat was so dry. I can not go back to sleep. "I'm thirsty!"

"Ah, well! Let me get ah _  Ahahahaha__  I think your mug on the table, ___ I had borrowed it __ "

My breathing suddenly became heavy. Swallowed, become something painful. My legs like glued to the floor, not moving.
From the corner of my eyes, I saw his melancholy face with a forced laugh. Empty.

Just a bad dream! Just a bad dream! Just a bad dream!

I tried to walk casually. Calmly.
My hands trembled, making small waves in the water in my cup.
Why is this?. He does not always have to fetch your water and calm you when you have bad dream, Kibum!. It's okay, it's okay. Everything is alright.

Brukk _

My body unbalance. The water that I brought spills wetting my slippers. I look at him. He was leaning over, trying to help me. I quickly straightened my body. My legs hurt. Who is the fool who put this stup -__ wheelchair. My heart was hot. I wanted to kick away that wheelchair,

"_ You okay?" JinKi looked at me with worry. I don’t want to see it!.

I hurriedly walked to my bed and covering my entire body.

"__  I'm sorry__" he apologized. for what?.

"Just... shut up!" I turned. my back facing him. My  eyes hot, tears come out without my asking. My leg hurts! It's sick.


If it's really just a bad dream. How nice.


# # #

Stories that we have
would not exist if in disbelief.


At least I'm alive.

At first it was horrible, but this is my life. I guess I can deal with this, I'm a singer not a dancer. I'm still allowed to participate in the fifth album though. That's all right.

"Ah, hyung! This! " Taemin with his smile innocently trying to hand me a cup. Since I took almost 15 minutes to trying to  grab that cup. The cup was located on the middle shelf. I was even difficult to reach it now.

"Thank you _"

Not that I'm not aware of their sincerity. I know they genuinely help me. I have always recieved their help even before I become like this. But not just because I find myself to be a big burden for them but, seeing them pick something up for me, walked me, walking in front of me with their feet __their legs_ I feel jealous.

I'm a bad person.

"But hyung! he will alone then! Can’t we wait for others to come home first? " Taemin half-whispered voice, insistent to the manager. That sounds pathetic.

I'm holding them back.

The dorm’s very quiet. All gone with their schedules, manager and Taemin had just left, looking worried after I assure him that I was okay.

Actually, in fact I’m not really okay.

I can only look at the mess I had just made. Only fifteen minutes I was alone, I've dropped a lot of stuff. Just wanted to take a box of cereal, all the contents of the upper falls, because I find it hard to reach out. I'm totally useless.

Actually, what am I doing here?.

Difficulty I reached this place. I struggled to get out of the dorm room. Hahhh I did great!.

Either from when a distance between the elevator and the door become this far?. My breathing’s irregular. My hands ache (after turning the wheelchair that carrying my body). I stick out my hand to reach the elevator button in front of me. Quite difficult.
Ouch, my stomach vibrating. I mean cell phone vibrate in my pocket hoody! At times like this.

Prakk prekk.

Even when it has become like this, I still sloppy.

"Ew __ah uh euh__" I tried to reach my cell phone that’s just I dropped on the floor. My hands can’t reach it past the wheelchair. Damn!. Seriously! I want to cry. I'm phatetic.

"_ This!"

A thin white hand take my cell phone and handed it towards me. I looked up. This is not good, I'm sure my eyes are watery. " __ Kibum __?".

He just looked at me without speaking. His eyes were empty. I can not read it.
I looked down automatically, I stuck out my hand to take my cell phone from his hand. "Thank y__eh?"

Suddenly he pulled back my cell phone.

"Who?" He said suddenly.

"Eh?"

"Who would you text? Who would you call?" He said, messing tweaking my cell phone. "You're cheating on me?".

"Haaaaaaaaaaaaaa?!" I could only gawk. Undoubtedly, he is almighty. With a flash, he can flip through my mind, my heart. I smiled automatically.

"Where are you going?" He asked. Hands my cell phone.

"Huh? _ Err, I'm going to the vending machine on the third floor eheh _ "

He directly holds my wheelchair boost and pushed me into the elevator that had just opened. He pressed the three button.

"I __ I can do it myself, Kibum!" For some reason, I again feel uncomfortable. I'm upset.

"I know!" He said briefly.

"And _ I can do it myself! I say _ "

"Don’t leave me!" He said softly. Flat.

"Do not leave me ~! You know? With all the rumors of ghosts in our dorm. And when I came in, no one was there, I was alone? You know how creepy moment was that? _ " He went on spoiled.

I don’t want to smile. No. Idiot! You're not good at lying. Your tone, your words just __ not in accordance with your facial expression is not well with your heart either. I could see your reflection in the aluminum elevator doors and I can feel your heart.

" So, __ do not leave me!"

If so, if you continue to be behind me, how can I see you?.


Hey Kibum! What should I do.

# # #

when your day is empty
and when your heart is empty,
I'll be there, I’m there, with you always


Quit what? Changing the leader what? How can they say things like that?.

I walked fast. I'm angry. I'm sad. __ I don’t know what to do. Just now, manager and Mr Lee talking about him. JinKi fate they said. They said he removed from SHINee. He will not take part in SHINee anymore. Changing leader _ replace him. What a lie?.
I want to meet him now!. It shouldn’t be like this!. He still have to be with SHINee. With me. I must see him now, to make me calm.

JinKi where are you?.

I couldn’t have called him. I'm like crying right now, my voice would not come out well.

I've just finished recording my part. My part is finished J

It means he is in the recording studio!.
I speed up my steps. I have to make him stay with us. With me until that time come.
My heart is already messed up, this increasingly erratic when I could not find him in the recording studio. There is only the composer and producer there. They have gone home? Why didn’t wait for me?.

Make me a taxi home was enough to make my day so perfectly bad. I heard something that shouldn’t I listen, I haven’t seen JinKi until now and they left me home by myself.

I did good! I bought milk, Taemin need this. Bread wheat, Minho and his healthy diet. chicken, JinKi course. True!, Shopping helps me release stress. I bought all this after they did not wait for me? Why am I so good?.
Forget it! I didn’t hear anything. Nothing is wrong!yeah!.

Hmmmmm, how to cook this chicken? (We'll be fine as before) grilled chicken? (Do not worry) Chicken soup? (He will recover) Fried chicken? (everything is alright). JinKi liked fried chicken most, but yesterday we've been eating fried chicken (JinKi not going to anywhere).

"Ah! I forgot to buy something for Jjong! __ " Damn! Why is my heart beating fast like this?. "__ Well, boiled egg for Jjong !" Why I can’t keep my calm?.

My footsteps hurried along the corridor’s apartment that’s still lit by red light in the afternoon. Yet all is fine as usual right?.
"I'm home!" This is very strange?. I just saw Taemin sat huddled in the living room couch. "Where’s the others Taeminnie?!" I put my groceries on the kitchen table.

This is strange. Taemin didn’t answer me, he just turned his face. Why? Is there a problem with his school?. well, I'll talk to him later. I walked into my room, our room. I want to see JinKi first.

I feel like vomiting, nausea, my stomach filled with such as bitter fluid, when I didn’t find anything anyone in our room. I immediately walked to the bathroom. None. Minho and Jjong’s room. None. Balcony. None. Laundry room. None. I can’t see JinKi anywhere.

My face hot, when I saw Taemin. His eyes wet and red, he didn’t want to look at me.

"Taemin, where are the others?" For some reason my voice trembled and stinging.

"Hyung-" Taemin just look away briefly. What's this?.

"I-hyung, we-"

"Kibum-" Jjong came from behind the entrance, Minho and the manager hyung trailing behind him. I'm still looking towards the door of the newly passed manager. There should be one more person through the door right?.

"Where’s JinKi? You don’t wait for him? " I asked. When the manager closed the door quietly.

Jjong and the manager hyung approached me. Minho instead just stay where he is, not moving. Strange look on their faces. mellow.

"KiBum__ listen to me! We still SHINee__ JinKi too. But, he would support SHINee differently now! " What is he talking about?.

"This__ Is good for all of us!"

"Where’s JinKi?" Who are you talking about?.

"Kibum, JinKi is the one who wants this! We can not deny it. This is also for the good for all of us! "

I really want to throw stuff at these people. What have they done? What are they doing to my heart? Where's My JinKi!.

"Hmph! You said we still SHINee? What's this? You guys kicked him out? " What Joke is this? Worse than JinKi’s joke.

"Kibum! Kicked who out? No one - " Your voice can still be even that high Jjong?!.

"You don’t even tell me about this thingy! You don’t even invite me to take this decision or any of this! " You are disgusting.

"This decision! For the good of all! He just wanted to concentrate on his healing! he - " healing you said? You say if he could not recover. Manager hyung!. You just want to keep him away from me right? You and your business mind!.

"Who decides JinKi can’t go home anymore? SHINee? So, am I no longer SHINee? I don’t recall ever for approve any decision?!. " You all're really annoying!. "Where is he?! __ Out of the way you jerk! ".

Where’s that person? As a leader he should stay with members.

"Kibum! Where are you going? " I passed Jjong and manager rudely. Where do I go? You ask? What do you care?.

"Kibum!" Minho who had been silent, held  my arms, holding me.

I was too strong today! My emotional turmoil. With easy I could let go of my arm from Minho. I slammed the door behind me. My legs ran. Where?. Of course to him.

Slamed door and I heard footsteps behind me. I hear voices calling me. I don’t care. I want my JinKi. I don’t even know where is he? I have to go to where?.

Why the world like spins slower. Dizziness. My feet like don’t touch the solid. I squeezed my head felt like going to broke. What's this?. Painful. I tried to reach what can be reached by my hand. But my hand can only find the wall of the corridor where my fingernails scratching the paint layer. Hoping to reduce this pain. Useless ! My body's a mess.

I could faintly hear them calling out my name. I can still hear Taemin screams among the buzz that meet my ears.
My legs gave up, letting my body slumped to the floor. I could feel a pair of rough arms hold and embrace my body. Minho?.

Dark.

Where is JinKi?. You're supposed to help me!

# # #

when your path is lost
and when your breath is away,
I'll be there, I’m there, with you always


Our faithful ShaWol. My dear MVPs. They left many messages of love that worried about our situation. I see a lot of our me2day mention. Yes, they still don’t know my situation.

I'm curious, what statement will be management issued?. What will be the same statment as they used when Kibum -hyung could not be together with Super Junior anymore because of injuries his vocal cords and lupus?. or would be more strange than just 'more concentrated for acting'?. since I'm not acting.

It's a good decision Lee JinKi. I can’t possibly continue to hold them back. I don’t want to be their burden, the burden of anyone!.
This place is pretty good. Where I was deceiving myself! Haha. They said this is the place of therapy for my legs. Hmpft! Who I am and they lying?. Of course I know my feet can’t walk anymore. my spine is demage! How to fix it?.

I miss Kibum.

How’s him? He must already know I'm gone. He may not find me here. It's nice that they keep my place now. I'm not blind, he increasingly doesn’t look healthy. Always in a hurry over to me when he saw me anywhere. Take care of me. Doesn’t let me do anything. I am a very big burden for him.

My head feels heavy, it is not lifted. I'm comfortable down to the ground, let the evening sun shining on my hair. I closed my eyes prevents the blinding red light entered my eyes.

Eh? Why become dark? A shadow covered the sun in front of me. I squinted, my eyes trying to focus on the figure standing just a few feet in front of me. His face isn’t clear, because the background light is too dazzling.

"__ What are you doing here? __ Hhhh hhhh - " he said haltingly. His voice quiet with irregular breathing.

I was shaking. My heart was beating fast suddenly. I could clearly see the figure. But it's not like him.

"Kibum?" I do not believe it. How did he -?

I saw a mess skinny guy. This guy wearing baggy black jeans, white shirt hung loosely on his collar bones, his tattered green army jacket, his hair messy. This is not a fashionista Key.

"What -? How did you -? This is-"

His pale lips. His uncolored skin. His body is skinnier. The bones of his face more clearly visible. His breath is irregular, he looks like just run a marathon. What is the fifth album so torture him?. He is not good.

"What are you doing here?" He asked again.

"I'm supposed to ask it to you!" I try to calm, resting my back on my wheel chair.

"I'm here to ask it! What are you doing here? "Okay, he's Kibum.

"Hhhhh, why are you here? Who gave you know I’m here? " I don’t see any expression on his face. "Haaaaaaaa ~, you're the almighty ~ of course you can find me on your own way! But, you wasting your time by coming here Kibum! Don’t you have completed our fifth album? "

"For what I work hard for that album? You also don’t do anything and instead stay here! You're the leader! "

All right! It's no use. I may not win over Kibum.

"Kibum whatever! go home! You-" I turned my wheel chair.

"You hate me?!"

I turned back to him. hate him?!. I saw his impassive face.

"-You even tell your mother not to give me know where you are! -" He's looking for me?.

"Why are you so hate me! __ I know if you had not jumped into my chair and protected me, maybe that accident had killed me. But, because of it, you be like this__this is all becaus of me raight? __  I'm sorry__ " his voice unclear. What is he talking about. Is he stupid?.

Apologizing for what?. If he died in the accident, what I live for then?. Could not walk doesn’t matter, rather than lose him.

"Kibum never mind, if you feel like that. Working hard for my last album then!" I can not see him, I turned back to him. I want to hug him.

Bukk

"Aww! Well-" he threw a roll of paper into my back head.

"Change it! What kind of a thank you is that? "

He threw the paper with my thanksto for the fifth album.

"-What an idol when you were writing it? That sounds like a message of death! As you will die! As you'll __ leave me! "

He's crying!. his face and his eyes red. He's like a child who wants his parents come home early. Ahhhhh you're immature Kibum.

"You can’t go around like this Kibum! You will stay in SHINee for me. " I picked up a roll of paper on the floor. I struggled to write this, the outpouring of the contents of my heart for him. but instead he threw it like this. "This is not about you Kibum-"

"I already told you, do not leave me!" He said looking at me without blink.

I sighed, he really doesn’t make it easy "Kibum whatever -"

"Which part of the sentence: don't-leave-me! that you don’t understand Lee JinKi?!" he started screaming with his sobs.

"Kibum listen-"

I could not finish my words. He immediately ran and hugged me kneeling. he sobbed on my shoulder. Squeezing his bony fingers on the back of my patient pajamas, it's a pain. He’s sobbing buried his face in my neck.

Kibum you think it’s easy? Decided to stay away from you?. Do you think it's easy to leave our family?. Do you think it’s easy to decide that no singing anymore?. You think it’s easy? Loving you, miss you, and can’t see you? Can’t touch you?!. You ruined it all Kibum!.
I can’t hold it anymore the tears wetting my cheeks. You make me want to go back. Back in everything!. He destroyed all that I have decided with great difficulty.

what I, we have to do?. We were like two fools who embraced on the roof of therapy house the sky was getting dark. Two grown boys who cry bleak whiny toddlers.

"I already told you! __ Do not leave me! "

# # #

in love, I ask
till where this love will be teased?


I don’t understand what love is. During this time, I thought love is us! Us!. But I began to know that it's not love. It is affection. Love that seen in front of me seemed deeper than that.

I saw a man standing beside a large window holding the cover of our new album. His last album.

"Hyung! it’s about to begin! " I said softly. Actually I don’t want to disturb him at this time. When he read his message again in our album. Him to commemorate his time.

He smiled at me patted my shoulder and stepped outside. I took the green album cover that he  just leaved on the dresser. I ran after him.

Same as him, I'm sure if he'll see us stand for him. yes, I believe.

Shouts voices like the roar of the fans. Always makes me shudder. This last session of our concert without him. yes, without him.

"Key _" I shudder to hear his name called. Suddenly all the shouting was lost. Silent. All lightsick slowly off.

"__ He ​​must know that we all love him __!" Jjong-hyung was drowned in his sobs when he look at  the big screen.

The voice sounded like sobs begin to fill the concert stadium. Jjong-hyung not cry alone. I also see Minho hyung’s eyes red and wet.
My eyes are also hot to see pictures of him appeared on the big screen alternately. It's been a year huh? You go that way.

"Hmph! So you tell me to don’t leave you! But you left me! You and all your selfishness! " I heard a mumble from JinKi -hyung smirks.

I guess, love is a mutual exchange of affection. I think love is something beautiful always. But it is not it. I see, I hear, I feel. If something that KiBum-hyung and JinKi-hyung have is love, then love is something terrible.

Kibum-hyung gave his spine to JinKi-hyung. He kept his brain wound from the accident from everyone. Suddenly leaving us. Didn’t even allow JinKi-hyung to see him for the last time. He was like crazy when he can’t find JinKi-hyung. And he says he did it for love.

JinKi-hyung willing to protect Kibum hyung when the accident happen, though it causes sores on his spine. Made him paralized. He willingly left his sing, something that he loves so much, in reason to don’t want to become a burden for KiBum-hyung. He died when he knows Kibum hyung's death. He was still dancing, singing and living with Kibum hyung’s spinal-, although anyone who saw him must have sensed that he was suffering and empty. And he said, because of love.

They hurt each other.

I was sobbing, so does everyone in this stadium. All, except one. A person who is looking at nowhere. Someone who just have hollow in his eyes. Someone who didn’t turned to the big screen behind him even once. Someone who now began to sing a sad love song.

You see Kibum-hyung? We love you.

I don’t know what love is. I don’t know, whether my tears and the tears of thousands of people in this stadium, or is JinKi-hyung’s voice that sings a mournful song without any tears, that called love?


Key Thanks to:
To Onew that has lasted for us. My dearest member. I love you guys.
For you who are willing to accompany me. Who does not leave me. Wants with me. Thank you for not hating me. No need to waiting for me, walking alone, Do not look back till the end, because i’m the one who'll wait for you. For you JinKi, the one I love.

in grief


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Tittle                        : In Grief

Author                     :keyzy_kyumsy

Pairing                     : OnKey

Genre                      : Angst

Rating                      : pg

Summary                 : in happy, I believe
you will be able accompanied with love
in grief, I ask ...
how your heart speaks?

A/N                          : This is only because I heard a song that good in my ears. This song title is 'in grief' by letto. This actually is a song that speaks in  my native language. (words in green are the lyrics. I tried to translate it. so, I think, partly mess. (sorry;_;))

in happy, I believe
you will be able to accompanied with love
in grief, I ask

how your heart speaks?

Ambulance siren. The red evening sky. Smoke. Footsteps in a hurry. Hysterical voices. Blood.
Bloodied arm curled around my injured waist.


"Kibum, __ you okay?" Weak hoarse voice from the body lying beside  me.


Dark.


Tears. Cold room. Sad faces. Without him.


"Impossible!"

"Maybe he will no longer together with SHINee!"

"Why? He'll be fine! Will be cured! Just like me! Just like Taemin! Just like you! "

"Who are you kidding? He will be paralyzed! "

__ Hurt.

"Ahh!" I woke with a start. My eyes widened to see around. My breath irregular. My room?. That dream again.

"You okay?"

I turned toward the familiar voice. My throat is dry. He’s sits there on his bed.

" __ is okay!" I re-set my breath. Calm down!.

"_ Bad dream?" He asked again. I don’t want to see him.

I woke up from my bed. Taemin still asleep curled up in a bed next to mine. The light was still burning brightly. Silent. Clock ticking sound so clear. It's 3 am.
What is he doing at this hour? Why still awake?.

"Yes! Just a bad dream _ " I stood up from my bed, my throat was so dry. I can not go back to sleep. "I'm thirsty!"

"Ah, well! Let me get ah _  Ahahahaha__  I think your mug on the table, ___ I had borrowed it __ "

My breathing suddenly became heavy. Swallowed, become something painful. My legs like glued to the floor, not moving.
From the corner of my eyes, I saw his melancholy face with a forced laugh. Empty.

Just a bad dream! Just a bad dream! Just a bad dream!

I tried to walk casually. Calmly.
My hands trembled, making small waves in the water in my cup.
Why is this?. He does not always have to fetch your water and calm you when you have bad dream, Kibum!. It's okay, it's okay. Everything is alright.

Brukk _

My body unbalance. The water that I brought spills wetting my slippers. I look at him. He was leaning over, trying to help me. I quickly straightened my body. My legs hurt. Who is the fool who put this stup -__ wheelchair. My heart was hot. I wanted to kick away that wheelchair,

"_ You okay?" JinKi looked at me with worry. I don’t want to see it!.

I hurriedly walked to my bed and covering my entire body.

"__  I'm sorry__" he apologized. for what?.

"Just... shut up!" I turned. my back facing him. My  eyes hot, tears come out without my asking. My leg hurts! It's sick.


If it's really just a bad dream. How nice.


# # #

Stories that we have
would not exist if in disbelief.


At least I'm alive.

At first it was horrible, but this is my life. I guess I can deal with this, I'm a singer not a dancer. I'm still allowed to participate in the fifth album though. That's all right.

"Ah, hyung! This! " Taemin with his smile innocently trying to hand me a cup. Since I took almost 15 minutes to trying to  grab that cup. The cup was located on the middle shelf. I was even difficult to reach it now.

"Thank you _"

Not that I'm not aware of their sincerity. I know they genuinely help me. I have always recieved their help even before I become like this. But not just because I find myself to be a big burden for them but, seeing them pick something up for me, walked me, walking in front of me with their feet __their legs_ I feel jealous.

I'm a bad person.

"But hyung! he will alone then! Can’t we wait for others to come home first? " Taemin half-whispered voice, insistent to the manager. That sounds pathetic.

I'm holding them back.

The dorm’s very quiet. All gone with their schedules, manager and Taemin had just left, looking worried after I assure him that I was okay.

Actually, in fact I’m not really okay.

I can only look at the mess I had just made. Only fifteen minutes I was alone, I've dropped a lot of stuff. Just wanted to take a box of cereal, all the contents of the upper falls, because I find it hard to reach out. I'm totally useless.

Actually, what am I doing here?.

Difficulty I reached this place. I struggled to get out of the dorm room. Hahhh I did great!.

Either from when a distance between the elevator and the door become this far?. My breathing’s irregular. My hands ache (after turning the wheelchair that carrying my body). I stick out my hand to reach the elevator button in front of me. Quite difficult.
Ouch, my stomach vibrating. I mean cell phone vibrate in my pocket hoody! At times like this.

Prakk prekk.

Even when it has become like this, I still sloppy.

"Ew __ah uh euh__" I tried to reach my cell phone that’s just I dropped on the floor. My hands can’t reach it past the wheelchair. Damn!. Seriously! I want to cry. I'm phatetic.

"_ This!"

A thin white hand take my cell phone and handed it towards me. I looked up. This is not good, I'm sure my eyes are watery. " __ Kibum __?".

He just looked at me without speaking. His eyes were empty. I can not read it.
I looked down automatically, I stuck out my hand to take my cell phone from his hand. "Thank y__eh?"

Suddenly he pulled back my cell phone.

"Who?" He said suddenly.

"Eh?"

"Who would you text? Who would you call?" He said, messing tweaking my cell phone. "You're cheating on me?".

"Haaaaaaaaaaaaaa?!" I could only gawk. Undoubtedly, he is almighty. With a flash, he can flip through my mind, my heart. I smiled automatically.

"Where are you going?" He asked. Hands my cell phone.

"Huh? _ Err, I'm going to the vending machine on the third floor eheh _ "

He directly holds my wheelchair boost and pushed me into the elevator that had just opened. He pressed the three button.

"I __ I can do it myself, Kibum!" For some reason, I again feel uncomfortable. I'm upset.

"I know!" He said briefly.

"And _ I can do it myself! I say _ "

"Don’t leave me!" He said softly. Flat.

"Do not leave me ~! You know? With all the rumors of ghosts in our dorm. And when I came in, no one was there, I was alone? You know how creepy moment was that? _ " He went on spoiled.

I don’t want to smile. No. Idiot! You're not good at lying. Your tone, your words just __ not in accordance with your facial expression is not well with your heart either. I could see your reflection in the aluminum elevator doors and I can feel your heart.

" So, __ do not leave me!"

If so, if you continue to be behind me, how can I see you?.


Hey Kibum! What should I do.

# # #

when your day is empty
and when your heart is empty,
I'll be there, I’m there, with you always


Quit what? Changing the leader what? How can they say things like that?.

I walked fast. I'm angry. I'm sad. __ I don’t know what to do. Just now, manager and Mr Lee talking about him. JinKi fate they said. They said he removed from SHINee. He will not take part in SHINee anymore. Changing leader _ replace him. What a lie?.
I want to meet him now!. It shouldn’t be like this!. He still have to be with SHINee. With me. I must see him now, to make me calm.

JinKi where are you?.

I couldn’t have called him. I'm like crying right now, my voice would not come out well.

I've just finished recording my part. My part is finished J

It means he is in the recording studio!.
I speed up my steps. I have to make him stay with us. With me until that time come.
My heart is already messed up, this increasingly erratic when I could not find him in the recording studio. There is only the composer and producer there. They have gone home? Why didn’t wait for me?.

Make me a taxi home was enough to make my day so perfectly bad. I heard something that shouldn’t I listen, I haven’t seen JinKi until now and they left me home by myself.

I did good! I bought milk, Taemin need this. Bread wheat, Minho and his healthy diet. chicken, JinKi course. True!, Shopping helps me release stress. I bought all this after they did not wait for me? Why am I so good?.
Forget it! I didn’t hear anything. Nothing is wrong!yeah!.

Hmmmmm, how to cook this chicken? (We'll be fine as before) grilled chicken? (Do not worry) Chicken soup? (He will recover) Fried chicken? (everything is alright). JinKi liked fried chicken most, but yesterday we've been eating fried chicken (JinKi not going to anywhere).

"Ah! I forgot to buy something for Jjong! __ " Damn! Why is my heart beating fast like this?. "__ Well, boiled egg for Jjong !" Why I can’t keep my calm?.

My footsteps hurried along the corridor’s apartment that’s still lit by red light in the afternoon. Yet all is fine as usual right?.
"I'm home!" This is very strange?. I just saw Taemin sat huddled in the living room couch. "Where’s the others Taeminnie?!" I put my groceries on the kitchen table.

This is strange. Taemin didn’t answer me, he just turned his face. Why? Is there a problem with his school?. well, I'll talk to him later. I walked into my room, our room. I want to see JinKi first.

I feel like vomiting, nausea, my stomach filled with such as bitter fluid, when I didn’t find anything anyone in our room. I immediately walked to the bathroom. None. Minho and Jjong’s room. None. Balcony. None. Laundry room. None. I can’t see JinKi anywhere.

My face hot, when I saw Taemin. His eyes wet and red, he didn’t want to look at me.

"Taemin, where are the others?" For some reason my voice trembled and stinging.

"Hyung-" Taemin just look away briefly. What's this?.

"I-hyung, we-"

"Kibum-" Jjong came from behind the entrance, Minho and the manager hyung trailing behind him. I'm still looking towards the door of the newly passed manager. There should be one more person through the door right?.

"Where’s JinKi? You don’t wait for him? " I asked. When the manager closed the door quietly.

Jjong and the manager hyung approached me. Minho instead just stay where he is, not moving. Strange look on their faces. mellow.

"KiBum__ listen to me! We still SHINee__ JinKi too. But, he would support SHINee differently now! " What is he talking about?.

"This__ Is good for all of us!"

"Where’s JinKi?" Who are you talking about?.

"Kibum, JinKi is the one who wants this! We can not deny it. This is also for the good for all of us! "

I really want to throw stuff at these people. What have they done? What are they doing to my heart? Where's My JinKi!.

"Hmph! You said we still SHINee? What's this? You guys kicked him out? " What Joke is this? Worse than JinKi’s joke.

"Kibum! Kicked who out? No one - " Your voice can still be even that high Jjong?!.

"You don’t even tell me about this thingy! You don’t even invite me to take this decision or any of this! " You are disgusting.

"This decision! For the good of all! He just wanted to concentrate on his healing! he - " healing you said? You say if he could not recover. Manager hyung!. You just want to keep him away from me right? You and your business mind!.

"Who decides JinKi can’t go home anymore? SHINee? So, am I no longer SHINee? I don’t recall ever for approve any decision?!. " You all're really annoying!. "Where is he?! __ Out of the way you jerk! ".

Where’s that person? As a leader he should stay with members.

"Kibum! Where are you going? " I passed Jjong and manager rudely. Where do I go? You ask? What do you care?.

"Kibum!" Minho who had been silent, held  my arms, holding me.

I was too strong today! My emotional turmoil. With easy I could let go of my arm from Minho. I slammed the door behind me. My legs ran. Where?. Of course to him.

Slamed door and I heard footsteps behind me. I hear voices calling me. I don’t care. I want my JinKi. I don’t even know where is he? I have to go to where?.

Why the world like spins slower. Dizziness. My feet like don’t touch the solid. I squeezed my head felt like going to broke. What's this?. Painful. I tried to reach what can be reached by my hand. But my hand can only find the wall of the corridor where my fingernails scratching the paint layer. Hoping to reduce this pain. Useless ! My body's a mess.

I could faintly hear them calling out my name. I can still hear Taemin screams among the buzz that meet my ears.
My legs gave up, letting my body slumped to the floor. I could feel a pair of rough arms hold and embrace my body. Minho?.

Dark.

Where is JinKi?. You're supposed to help me!

# # #

when your path is lost
and when your breath is away,
I'll be there, I’m there, with you always


Our faithful ShaWol. My dear MVPs. They left many messages of love that worried about our situation. I see a lot of our me2day mention. Yes, they still don’t know my situation.

I'm curious, what statement will be management issued?. What will be the same statment as they used when Kibum -hyung could not be together with Super Junior anymore because of injuries his vocal cords and lupus?. or would be more strange than just 'more concentrated for acting'?. since I'm not acting.

It's a good decision Lee JinKi. I can’t possibly continue to hold them back. I don’t want to be their burden, the burden of anyone!.
This place is pretty good. Where I was deceiving myself! Haha. They said this is the place of therapy for my legs. Hmpft! Who I am and they lying?. Of course I know my feet can’t walk anymore. my spine is demage! How to fix it?.

I miss Kibum.

How’s him? He must already know I'm gone. He may not find me here. It's nice that they keep my place now. I'm not blind, he increasingly doesn’t look healthy. Always in a hurry over to me when he saw me anywhere. Take care of me. Doesn’t let me do anything. I am a very big burden for him.

My head feels heavy, it is not lifted. I'm comfortable down to the ground, let the evening sun shining on my hair. I closed my eyes prevents the blinding red light entered my eyes.

Eh? Why become dark? A shadow covered the sun in front of me. I squinted, my eyes trying to focus on the figure standing just a few feet in front of me. His face isn’t clear, because the background light is too dazzling.

"__ What are you doing here? __ Hhhh hhhh - " he said haltingly. His voice quiet with irregular breathing.

I was shaking. My heart was beating fast suddenly. I could clearly see the figure. But it's not like him.

"Kibum?" I do not believe it. How did he -?

I saw a mess skinny guy. This guy wearing baggy black jeans, white shirt hung loosely on his collar bones, his tattered green army jacket, his hair messy. This is not a fashionista Key.

"What -? How did you -? This is-"

His pale lips. His uncolored skin. His body is skinnier. The bones of his face more clearly visible. His breath is irregular, he looks like just run a marathon. What is the fifth album so torture him?. He is not good.

"What are you doing here?" He asked again.

"I'm supposed to ask it to you!" I try to calm, resting my back on my wheel chair.

"I'm here to ask it! What are you doing here? "Okay, he's Kibum.

"Hhhhh, why are you here? Who gave you know I’m here? " I don’t see any expression on his face. "Haaaaaaaa ~, you're the almighty ~ of course you can find me on your own way! But, you wasting your time by coming here Kibum! Don’t you have completed our fifth album? "

"For what I work hard for that album? You also don’t do anything and instead stay here! You're the leader! "

All right! It's no use. I may not win over Kibum.

"Kibum whatever! go home! You-" I turned my wheel chair.

"You hate me?!"

I turned back to him. hate him?!. I saw his impassive face.

"-You even tell your mother not to give me know where you are! -" He's looking for me?.

"Why are you so hate me! __ I know if you had not jumped into my chair and protected me, maybe that accident had killed me. But, because of it, you be like this__this is all becaus of me raight? __  I'm sorry__ " his voice unclear. What is he talking about. Is he stupid?.

Apologizing for what?. If he died in the accident, what I live for then?. Could not walk doesn’t matter, rather than lose him.

"Kibum never mind, if you feel like that. Working hard for my last album then!" I can not see him, I turned back to him. I want to hug him.

Bukk

"Aww! Well-" he threw a roll of paper into my back head.

"Change it! What kind of a thank you is that? "

He threw the paper with my thanksto for the fifth album.

"-What an idol when you were writing it? That sounds like a message of death! As you will die! As you'll __ leave me! "

He's crying!. his face and his eyes red. He's like a child who wants his parents come home early. Ahhhhh you're immature Kibum.

"You can’t go around like this Kibum! You will stay in SHINee for me. " I picked up a roll of paper on the floor. I struggled to write this, the outpouring of the contents of my heart for him. but instead he threw it like this. "This is not about you Kibum-"

"I already told you, do not leave me!" He said looking at me without blink.

I sighed, he really doesn’t make it easy "Kibum whatever -"

"Which part of the sentence: don't-leave-me! that you don’t understand Lee JinKi?!" he started screaming with his sobs.

"Kibum listen-"

I could not finish my words. He immediately ran and hugged me kneeling. he sobbed on my shoulder. Squeezing his bony fingers on the back of my patient pajamas, it's a pain. He’s sobbing buried his face in my neck.

Kibum you think it’s easy? Decided to stay away from you?. Do you think it's easy to leave our family?. Do you think it’s easy to decide that no singing anymore?. You think it’s easy? Loving you, miss you, and can’t see you? Can’t touch you?!. You ruined it all Kibum!.
I can’t hold it anymore the tears wetting my cheeks. You make me want to go back. Back in everything!. He destroyed all that I have decided with great difficulty.

what I, we have to do?. We were like two fools who embraced on the roof of therapy house the sky was getting dark. Two grown boys who cry bleak whiny toddlers.

"I already told you! __ Do not leave me! "

# # #

in love, I ask
till where this love will be teased?


I don’t understand what love is. During this time, I thought love is us! Us!. But I began to know that it's not love. It is affection. Love that seen in front of me seemed deeper than that.

I saw a man standing beside a large window holding the cover of our new album. His last album.

"Hyung! it’s about to begin! " I said softly. Actually I don’t want to disturb him at this time. When he read his message again in our album. Him to commemorate his time.

He smiled at me patted my shoulder and stepped outside. I took the green album cover that he  just leaved on the dresser. I ran after him.

Same as him, I'm sure if he'll see us stand for him. yes, I believe.

Shouts voices like the roar of the fans. Always makes me shudder. This last session of our concert without him. yes, without him.

"Key _" I shudder to hear his name called. Suddenly all the shouting was lost. Silent. All lightsick slowly off.

"__ He ​​must know that we all love him __!" Jjong-hyung was drowned in his sobs when he look at  the big screen.

The voice sounded like sobs begin to fill the concert stadium. Jjong-hyung not cry alone. I also see Minho hyung’s eyes red and wet.
My eyes are also hot to see pictures of him appeared on the big screen alternately. It's been a year huh? You go that way.

"Hmph! So you tell me to don’t leave you! But you left me! You and all your selfishness! " I heard a mumble from JinKi -hyung smirks.

I guess, love is a mutual exchange of affection. I think love is something beautiful always. But it is not it. I see, I hear, I feel. If something that KiBum-hyung and JinKi-hyung have is love, then love is something terrible.

Kibum-hyung gave his spine to JinKi-hyung. He kept his brain wound from the accident from everyone. Suddenly leaving us. Didn’t even allow JinKi-hyung to see him for the last time. He was like crazy when he can’t find JinKi-hyung. And he says he did it for love.

JinKi-hyung willing to protect Kibum hyung when the accident happen, though it causes sores on his spine. Made him paralized. He willingly left his sing, something that he loves so much, in reason to don’t want to become a burden for KiBum-hyung. He died when he knows Kibum hyung's death. He was still dancing, singing and living with Kibum hyung’s spinal-, although anyone who saw him must have sensed that he was suffering and empty. And he said, because of love.

They hurt each other.

I was sobbing, so does everyone in this stadium. All, except one. A person who is looking at nowhere. Someone who just have hollow in his eyes. Someone who didn’t turned to the big screen behind him even once. Someone who now began to sing a sad love song.

You see Kibum-hyung? We love you.

I don’t know what love is. I don’t know, whether my tears and the tears of thousands of people in this stadium, or is JinKi-hyung’s voice that sings a mournful song without any tears, that called love?


Key Thanks to:
To Onew that has lasted for us. My dearest member. I love you guys.
For you who are willing to accompany me. Who does not leave me. Wants with me. Thank you for not hating me. No need to waiting for me, walking alone, Do not look back till the end, because i’m the one who'll wait for you. For you JinKi, the one I love.

in grief


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A Surprise? Oh Really Surprising!!
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Tittle                           :  A Surprise? Oh Really Surprising!!
Author                       :[info]keyzy_kyumsy
Pairing                      : OnKey
Genre                       : fluff
Rating                       : pg-13
Sumarry                    : a surprise thing doesn't always this surprising! (wut kind of summary is this? =_=)


 
 
 
It’s dark outside. The sky seems heavy with the grey clouds hanging in it. No stars. No silver moon. No any single light in the black sky. JinKi’s expresion wasn’t better than the sky that time. His face stiff. No smile. Just frown full of though painted on his face.
 
He and other members just finished their last schadule before a holiday(tomorow). JinKi just stood beside the kitchen bar. His eyes look at nowhere, he just bite his own lips. Should i do that?.it’s something that he thought since 2 weeks ago.
 
JinKi threw his shigt toward living room where KiBum sat on the couch hugging his pink pillow watching his favourite show. Taemin sat on the floor beside KiBum’s feets leaned his head on KiBum’s knee. MinHo sat besides Taemin. It’s good view. KiBum’s laugh, his habits hitting something when laugh (poor Taemin). Smile automaticly painted on JinKi’s face when he saw KiBum’s smile.
 
Should I ruin this?. Ah, maybe it’ll not that effected to KiBum though, he is Kim KiBum I’m talking about. But...
 
“what is this?!” KiBum asked, when Jjong came and trhow him a headphone.
 
“ear protector !” Jjong simply answered and sat beside KiBum.
 
“=_=... I know, why you give me this?!”                                        
 
“look at outside! This night, stroms will play their recital!” said Jjong with his pilosophy (confusing) words. 
 
With that, KiBum imedietly put the ear protector  on his head and look at the outside with fear. JinKi feel bit angry, jealous, or something that made his stomach like filled with strange fluids seeing the fact how Jjong really know what KiBum want. JinKi look through the window, it’s dark. Ah, yes KiBum hate stroms.
 
"Kibum!" Somehow he began his move?. JinKi was standing in front Kibum wit such an expression that which is enough to draw a confused look on Kibum face. "I want to talk to you!". Continue JinKi brief.

"Hm?"

"I want to talk with you!" JinKi open the ear protectors from Kibum’s head with harsh. Making Taemin gasped, Jjong just smirked and Minho just do not care.

For a moment, Kibum surprised and just looked at JinKi without a blink. Seeing Kibum did not give him a better respond, JinKi repeat his words. "I want us to talk!."

"Please! I'm listening! "Kibum said his return to the state.

"Not here! Can you come with me? "JinKi asked Mostly like an order.

Kibum frowned "oh, comeon JinKi don’t do strange things! I'm not in the mood! "

"Follow me!" Said JinKi stressed.

Kibum looked at JinKi with a puzzled look, sighed. "~ Okay" and he woke up lazily.

JinKi turn around and walk straight, his view straight ahead, his heart pounding. He was confused where he got such courage. Being rude to his Kibum? He's never done that before. JinKi stop. Lowered his head, when he reached the end of the balcony. JinKi swallowed his saliva. thousands of thoughts floating around in his head.

"What do you want to talk? Hurry! It's like rain! " Kibum stood behind folded his hands under his chest. Divaish as usual.

Do I have to?. What is not an exaggeration?. But Jjong true! In the end this for Kibum and me. Yeah, just do it! Just do not look at his eyes!. yes, do it!.


JiKi breathe in, he was tightly gripping the iron railing. He saw a dark overcast sky was filled with thunders and jarring, even though the rain has not gone down yet.

"Kibum __ I__we_" JinKi still focusing its sight to the sky black in front of him.

Kibum shut his ears when a line of lightning split the sky.
 
"Let's break up!" DHUARRRRR.

JinKi words sink. Defeated by the clamor that followed the flash of light beforeit. oh, what a timing.
Kibum still shut his ears, closes his eyes tightly and looked down. Holding his fear. Seeing  Kibum look like that, how JinKi want to hug his boyfriend who in fear like that.

"Come on in! This is terrible! Scary! Whatever you want to say, we're talking about it tomorrow! " Kibum said. Still covering his ears with fear.

For a moment, JinKi just shut up and almost let Kibum doing what he said, before he returned to his original purpose.

"No! Kibum I must speak now! "JinKi grabed Kibum wrist, preventing his steps.

"Oh, come on JinKi! " Kibum tried to remove JinKi’s grab. JinKi strong enough to withstand KiBum’s resistance and pulled back Kibum to the end of the balcony and face him.

"Listen to me! We _ ​​"

"Stop! Later! Can’t you see? It’s raining! "Kibum Refuses. His hand back covers his ears.

"Listen!" JinKi heart pounding when he let go of Kibum's hand from his ears. "Kibum we broke up!".

JinKi holding his breath. Tries not to blink and still holding eye contact with his Kibum.

"Tch! I've told you! JinKi Anyway, I'm not in the mood to play! " Kibum decided to broke the contact first. He rolled his eyes before stepping truned and about to leave JinKi.

"We broke up Kibum!" Kibum stop his steps.

"Let's break up!" JinKi just looking at the floor. His heart pounding. He could see KiBum’s legs turned to him.

Come on, do it! A little more! This is for him and all!.

"We broke up! __ You understand? I let you _go_ "JinKi still looking at the floor beneath his feet. His strong hands clenched. He closed his eyes. in his brain had imaging Kibum who would say something like "okay! Hmph ok I do not accept regret ok?? "Or" okay, let's break up! I do not really lose! "And left JinKi. JinKi almost like regret and want to take back his words.

"JinKi__ what I've done wrong?" JinKi opened his eyes to hear what he had just heard. That response does not like what he imagined. He expected to hear the harsh words of scorn, or diva Kibum distinctive tone. But what he heard was a faint almost drowned voice.

JinKi lifted his head facing Kibum. Ah, how much he regretted it. He only saw Kibum who looked at him with his eyes covered with tears.


"Eh?"

“Am I so annoying?"

Now JinKi began to panic. It should not be like this!.

"Kibum no, I _ I just _"

"I thought you loved me!" His  heart hot, when looking at a teardrop flow from the corner of his KiBum’s precious eye.
JinKi turned his face toward the dorm. Ask for help.

This does not match to the scenario!.

_~_~_
 

2 weeks ago.


"Come on, hyung! This will daebak! "Jjong embrace JinKi shoulder and sat down beside him.


"Yes hyung! He will  forget it! And after that, we partied together! "Taemin involved persuaded as he leaned his head on JinKi's lap.

"Yes, and moreover it is impossible to buy a present does not make sense that he requested. so we replace it with a bit of a surprise! " MinHo added. Stood leaning against the wall facing JinKi.

"But this is dangerous Jjong! What if he really thought that we broke up? "JinKi shook his head. do not want to.

"Oh come on, hyung ~ this is just pretend! You just tell him if you want to break up, and he'll leave you, and then when he came in, we give a surprise! Yoohaaa and all done!a surprise party! "Jjong described his scenario.


For some reason, JinKi felt  bit sad heard Jjong scenario. Well, the possibility of running  Jjong perfect scenario almost 99%. Yes, Kibum would have said 'okay' and go if JinK say ‘let’s break up!’.

"Yes, he probably will soon forget __ but what if he does not forget and still think if me and him broke up?! I do not want to! "

"Oh please ~ Kibum hyung's not that stupid! Where there are people partying after a breakup? after that you'll be partying too right? " Taemin persuaded more.


"But, still, __ it's difficult to acting in front of Kibum! He always knows when I'm lying. "

"You've acted in two musicals hyung!" MinHo said calmly.

Kibum never said 'I Love You' to him, Kibum is also often said jokingly wanted to break up. To some extent, JinKi really want to try this scenario. To some extent, he also wanted to know, what he means to Kibum. Although this is dangerous, but ...

"Okay then!"


_~_~_


 
"I thought you loved me!" Kibum voice trembling. His eyes wet, his nose red.

JinKi totally freaked out, he wanted to hugs Kibum at the time, but it would ruin their plans. JinKi kept his face turned into a dormitory. Ask for help. Quiet smile painted on his face when he saw Taemin with tart and candle in his hand tiptoed to the balcony. Jjong and Minho behind Taemin wearing party hats and little horns on their hands.


"Kibum-ah __" JinKi said with a smile.


"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" Shouted the three other members when they enter the balcony.

Kibum turned slowly, still shaking. Jjong showering KiBum with confeties, Minho blows the cornet and Taemin Singing happily with a cake in his hand. before KiBum turned back toward JinKi.
JinKi shut his eyes tightly and held up both his shoulders. Preparing to receive a few punches that may be Kibum give him. In return because his plays.


BRUKKKKK.


"Kibum!"


"Hyung!"


But JinKi didn’t get hit or any punches. When he opened his eyes, he saw Kibum who collapsed in front of him. Taemin who dropped the cake from his hands and panic Jjong and Minho swarming Kibum.

this is  really does not match with the scenario!.


-~-~-


"Hyung! Are you okay? Hyung, forgive us! We do not mind to __ ah, hyung __ "cried Taemin as soon as Kibum opened his eyes.

"Taemin-ah, he's just woken up!" Jjong trying to extricate Taemin of Kibum.


"Forgive us Kibum we don’t  know __" Jjong slurred speech bedside Kibum.


"Well, we do not know if you're not in good condition. And we just running this stupid plan, "said MinHo glanced toward Jjong.


"Hey, who's stupid? You also agree with my plan! You've even contributed to persuade JinKi-hyung! "Jjong protest.


"But, still it is your stupid idea!"


"This is not entirely __"


"Shut up!" Snapped Kibum from his bed. "My head dizzy!"


"Sorry hyung ~ we just wanted to give you a surprise party!" Taemin crying.


Kibum sighed patted his baby's head "okay, okay, thanks to the party, but can we continue later? I want to sleep! "Said Kibum.


"You're not aware of nearly 4 hours, and you still want to sleep?" Said Jjong stupid.


Kibum's laser garle enough to shut up Jjong.


"Okay-okay-okay! We go! " Said Jjong stepped outside the room, pulling along Taemin and followed by Minho.


Kibum closed his eyes. he just closed and breathe it, his mind blank.


"Errr Kibum?!" JinKi raises his head from behind the door. Kibum just rolled his eyes and turned facing the wall.


"Kibum __ eumm how is this? I'm sorry. __ I do not mean I do not know if you're not feeling well, so I just followed Jjong scenario and I mean __ __ I __ " JinKi stepped in his speak is not clear.


"I'm not sick!" Said Kibum annoyed under his blanket. still do not look at  JinKi.


"Eh? Eummm errr, okay then. Glad to Hear That you're not sick. Yeah you know, I just wanted to apologize! "JinKi sighed. Looked down and walked toward the door preparing to limp away.


"Hey __ are we really broke up?!".


JinKi turned when he heard  Kibum words. He saw Kibum had sat looking at him. Carelessly, he rushed  half ran toward Kibum. He fell once before finally sitting up in bed next to Kibum.


"Kibum listen! It's _ I __ break up words __ you know __ I do not intend to break up with you! Kibum I beg you! __we are not break up right? " JinKi said panic leaned close to Kibum. JinKi pleaded.


"You are the one who said broke up! Why are you asking me? "Kibum replied flatly.


I know this is a dangerous scenario! I wasn't supposed to do it. JinKi cursing his own self in his mind.


"I do not want to break up __ I really love you __" said JinKi down.


JinKi heart like jumps up and down on his chest. His eyes wide open. When Kibum suddenly pulled him and hugged him.


"JinKi I know you're stupid! But do not ever do 'stupid' thing like that anymore! " Said Kibum caressed his face on JinKi's chest. "You do not know __ I thought my world stopped turning and everything goes dark. When you said that! ".


JinKi  heart now like partying. He hugs Kibum tighter. A smile spreading across his lips.


He does not need the words I love you. Kibum's okay to play with broke up words. What matters now he knows that he is so influential in KiBum’s world just like Kibum is so influential in his world. Th is a wonderful feeling.

"I Love You _" JinKi could hear Kibum murmured in his chest. Make JinKi hugs tighter and tighter.
 
“ahhh~ happy birthday honey~~” JinKi’s whishper as he landed a soft kiss on KiBum’s lips.

“isn’t it too so so as a birthday present? A kiss?” KiBum complain.
 
“eh?”

“you know? If you really want to give me a birthday present or a birthday surprise, isn’t it’ll be easier if you just snuggled in my blanket, and only placing pink ribbons on your body?”


“huh?!”

KiBum smile. He placing his arms around JinKis shoulders and looked at JinKi lustfully “you’ll be a cute present with that pink ribbons~” KiBum said, before he started a passionate kiss
 
Apparently, that dangerous scenario isn’t that bad....nyaha~
 



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Woohoooooo~~~~ happy belate b’day KiBummie!!! You’re old now!!!
Hahhhhh....kkkkkk hmmm yeah i fainted at my last b’day bcs something like this too....(he pretend and said that he has a deadly disease that will kill him by 2 months) and i just like blank and collapsed that time!! Nyahahaha ß i can’t take this kind of joke really =,=’ kkkk
 
Sooooo let’s party for our kibummie and onkey’s love (ima weirdo)...heuuuuuu
All are wellcome.....~~~(hug)

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Only Sleep Closely
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Title                       : Only Sleep Closely (KiBum's POV)
Author                  :keyzy_kyumsy
Pairing                  : OnKey
Rating                   : pg-15
Genre                   : fluff
Summary             : "just  sleep close together~ it's okay ~ right?".
A/N                        : ahoyyyy~....kkkk it’s just pop out in my mind when i went to my grandma’s house. She is so scary (my grandma~) we can’t do anything fun in her house...so frustrating~.



"Come on KiBuuuuum ~" He spoiled whining again.


"No!"


"just  sleep close together~ it's okay ~ right?".


Only sleep close together?. He's crazy!.
This is my room, I mean really my room. This is the house of my father and mother. Daegu. Ahhh, oh my god! I don’t even remember the reason why he and I were here right now. Why would I invite him here?. The house of my parents?. You're crazy Kim Kibum.


It felt, everything goes weird. we get a day off, they already have plans, I am planning to go home, He was the only fools who do not have a plan.


"You want to take me home then?" This sentence somehow, it just came out of my mouth when I looked at his puzzled frown face, when Taemin, Minho and Jjong left.


From the moment I said that until now, I'm still confused by what am I doing?. Inviting these fools to the house of my parents?.


And now he's in my room. Both of us. Well, this is not the first time we were together in one room, but this is different, it's my parents' house. How is this? My heart was pounding like a high school girl who was in love. It's embarrassing.


"I promise won’t do anything! Just sleep on your side! Yes? Shouldn’t you? " And these fools continue like this.


How could it? Won’t do anything you say?. Seeing your eyes and your gestures alone, you've looked at me with lust!.


"Ah, you're supposed to sleep in the guest room! Go there! ". I threw a pillow right into his face. I hate to see his sulking face. it makes my lust on him.


I immediately curled my body facing the wall. Leaving him a dumb anguish in the camp bed next to my bed.


"Moooooo .... I do have some difficulty to get into your house. Go to your room! Why? We've been kissing, often even! We've made several se ---- "


BHUKKK!


"AWWWW!"


This fool!. I threw everything I could grab. What is he talking about?. In times like this?. It just makes the air that I breathe become more hot!. My body is getting hot. My brain is getting hot. I wrap my body in a blanket and curled up again on my bed.


"You're so mean ~" He cried.


"Shut up!"


Just sleep close together, say?!. He must be joking, are not likely to just sleep close together, It'll definitely will be 'more' than just sleeping together. Because every time I could hear his breath, its all so hot. Every time I feel his body’s heat, like my heart was missing. What if our skin is touching? I'm going to lose control, whenever it happens. his breath, his body heat, his heart pounds, his skin .... I want....


"--- You do not need to attach yourselve to the walls, to keep away from me Kibum!" He said stupidly, when I moved to make room for him in my bed.


"Hmmmm, well Kibum. I would not do it if you do not like. Good night! ".


THIS FOOL! WHY I CAN FALL IN LOVE WITH THIS STUPID!. I'I CAN’T HOLD  THIS ANYMORE!.


"Awww!" I threw my body. Hug him.


"Huh? Kibum-"


"WHY YOU VERY SLOW! WHY NOT YOU SENSITIVE! "


"Eh?" I hate those stupid face. You do not see, my face’s red?. You do not see I hug you?. You do not see? I embarrass myself?.


"Ahhhhhhh so frustrating!" He's really stupid.


"Huh ?.... s. .. sorry ~ ".


"Stupid!" I hugged him tighter. My face buried in his back deeper. It's embarrassing!.


"Errr ..... Kibum? if you hug me like this ... I can not breathe! "


Aaaaaiiiisssshhhhh! Just let me strangle this fool withmy hands!.


"Uokhokk! Oukhokk! k. .. Ki ... Kibum! you're suffocating me! Oukhokk-"


Really makes me frustrated!


"... Ki .. khoukk Kibum! if so, how can I hug you? "


Ahhhhhh, he turned and hugged me while I loosen my arms. It's embarrassing!.


I could feel, if he's grinning over my head when I was cuddling in his arms.


"You're so cute ~ my~ Kibum"


BHUAKK!


"OUCH!"
I guess I nudged his chin with my head. His own false! Why would he say such a thing?! Right now, no matter what he says, makes me ashamed!.


I'll be damned. Why would I give him V-neck pajamas?. Now his chest right in front of my face!. His skin, his heartbeat, his breath a sigh, is intoxicating.


Chu *


Did I say! Together with this person, nothing is 'just'. Only sleep closely?. See? Now, without knowing it, I've kissed his chest. I got drunk with his scent. My nose forced inhaling every inch of his skin’s seen by my eyes.


"... Kibum?" He said. startled tone audible from his voice.


Well, I'm sure he would be shocked. From the start his heart rate suddenly increased. Until his fig holding my head and forced me to see his face.


Would not be useful, JinKi!. I'm drunk right now. My eyes, my nose, my ears, my mouth all full of lust. My expression of lust, is not it?.


His  face looked surprised looked at me. Ahhhh, those eyes, that nose, those lips. His chin’s flushed! I guess it was a result of my header.


"is it hurt?"


Lick *


My tongue moves away. Want to feel that chin flushed. "Sorry!"
I know this would happen. He will not be able to hold me being like this. (Who will be?). He pinned me, make me right under his. with the same passion, his lips began to wet my lips. Our tongues danced in the mouth of another. When I opened my eyes, I saw his eyes filled with the same passion with me. Our breathing became heavy and hot.


"I ... .. hhhhhh ... JinKi hnnnhhhh ... ... hnnnhhhmmmhh .... I have to breathe ..." oxygen is starting to feel harder I get.


".. Mnnhhhhh ... just breathe with your nose! .. Hmnnnnnn ....".


He is stupid! I need oxygen!. I decided to kiss us. And take all the oxygen that I can be.


"Fine ... just breathe!" He said. whispered in my ear. His lips started licking my ear lobe. That's enough to make me shiver.


"Ahhhhhh ... Jin ... hhhhh ... aa-" this is not good. This is bad. if passed, I could not resist anymore.
Although I had to bite my lower lip, there is still some moans out of my mouth each time his tongue touched my body. No. No. No.


"JinKi! ... Hhhnnn ... ahhh ... stop! ... jinki! "I pulled his head from my stomach.


"What?" Said he sat looking at me.


"We will come to light! I can not help but noisy! "


It sucks!. He was grinning even after hearing my warning.


"Mmmhh ... JinKi! my parents would ... mmhhhh ... "instead he caught my face and kissed me with more passion.


"Let them see this !...."


"What?! .. Mhhhh ..."


"Let them see this ... mmhhhh ...." he began kissing my face. Licking my neck. "... So they'll let me ... mmmaahhh ... mhhh marry you ... ... ". the fool says as he bites me.


"Ouch ..... haaa ...."


Ahhhh, okay, whatever! What we do is just (our version of) sleep close together.





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